these lines will be filled with rage
with hatred against myself
against the disturbing thoughts and
the fragile bones of mine
i am made of shattered glass,
of mislead paths,
a bad child in a world
full of good people
my thoughts make me
a girl of hell
my actions a demon
possessing her beloved
my mother cries in agony
as her oldest
deprives herself of food and life
but deep inside she knows
this girl deserves it all
i do not belong.
i never have.