All these make up and i'd still think she's beautiful without it
The way her hair covers the side of her face
Those eyes that pierce through my veins
When she smiles and the way she laughs,
Happy, became my whole being

I don't want this to ever end.
I want to cherish every second i have with her
Words became the medium of affection
Smiles are the only confirmation
She became the center of the universe

I realize i don't need the best woman in the world
What i have is different
Because no one has ever made me feel this way before
She kept feeding the hunger of my soul
I love her and that's all i know

Her being beautiful is the only time that she is selfish
I can't look at another woman with the same impression
I was blinded, of her imperfections
Her smile is etched on my mind
I want to sleep so i can see her in my dreams tonight

The train just kept moving forward
haven't really enjoyed the journey so far
too afraid to reach the destination without the answers
as to why the world disappoints me

i'm lucky enough to get this far
others just got a glimpse of what it's like
To have their time of their life
That'll forever be an imagination to them

I'm tired of just observing the scenery
Wondering when will i get my fair share of moment
To have someone to be lonely with
an answer to some of my questions

People became really shallow
Or i'm just too deep
No matter which one is it
I hope we find what were looking for

Nobody in this world want a safe journey in this train
We want to go out there and explore what the world has to offer
We want to feel, we want to be part of something
Some will get tired of looking out the window

We want to be the scenery
the picture that everyone stop by at the exhibit
It doesn't have to be everyone
Just someone who have the decency to look at the whole picture

At the end of the day, the train will suddenly stop
it will leave us wondering why we keep pondering the what ifs
instead of conquering our fears of what is
And it is too late

I want to see tall buildings that towers over everything
Walk around with good food to accompany me
Feel how the wind blew differently
How city lights makes the night come alive
Allow me to forget everything tonight

I want to watch the moving scenery in the car window
With music attached in my ear
Nothing to fear, let the world welcome my presence
Where stars shine above to where i lay
I am finally free from yesterday

Moving feet that would lead them somewhere
How i wish i have some place to be
I want to follow their footsteps where there's no tragedy
Let's go in pairs and watch the world in a balcony

Amusement park full of colors
Smiling faces that wanders
Switching from one ride to another
How short an excitement can pass without the other

Walk around the beach while the sun is shining
Let the waves take over the sandcastles
Because we know nothing last forever
Yet i still build it to whomever i meet
Hoping it stays together

I want to know how it feels to be with someone
I don't want to look back at yesterday
I want tomorrow where we keep going even when it's difficult
I don't want another one to bite the dust

I want to get away with you
Memories aren't treasured without you
I want you to run away with me
But you'll be better off without me

I stay up every night to watch the moon glow
Glints of light scatters on the broken window
Sleep to overcome the hatred inside
You ease the pain by making peace tonight

Hop out of bed only to step on the shards of glass
It is my duty to endure the things from my painful past
Fixing myself without looking at the mirror
You remove the shadows to see myself clearer

I'll try not to miss you when you're gone
I take every bit of love i can get my hands on
I pray to God to teach me how to cope
Because we always build it up to watch it fall

Time goes by, people come and go
But i still see your face on every girl
I always wonder why people leave
It makes me wonder even more why you're still here

You try to be quiet and not respond, they'll say anything negative to discourage you.
You try not to hurt people's feeling, you'll just become very vulnerable.
You try to care about others situations, they'll use you and will think that they can walk in and out of your life anytime they wanted.
You try to be generous, they'll treat you like a meal ticket.
You go out of your way to make friends, it will lead to disappointments.
You are willing to do things for them yet they won't do the same for you.
You ask yourself if you're good enough or you just showed your best parts and good deeds to the wrong people.
You try to be a good person. You try to be nice. You try. You should.

Because that's the way to go.

In the end you become lonely and empty. Like a fishing net down in the sea for hours, assuming to have great multitude of fish, not knowing that the net is completely broken.

What do we do? Repair the net? Improve the fish hook? Go from artificial bait to natural bait to see which technique catch more fish? No. You freaking stop fishing. That's what.

Happiness. Satisfaction. Gratitude. None of those comes out of it.
You've been trying to help and improve others situation in any way possible, and yours is not improving any soon. They'll think everything is okay about you, because you spread positivity. Not knowing that you need fixing too. Stop trying.

The hell with being a good person anyway. It's self infliction. In this
uncompassionate and ungrateful world where pride is at an all time high, you shouldn't be. How they treat you is how they feel about you.
Stop trying to maintain the 'good person' image. They don't even appreciate it. It's only good for other people. You have to talk back sometimes. Just do you. So then you can't complain about anything. You won't get disappointed, hurt and annoyed. In the end they'll still judge you.

Since when did anyone ever gain respect and appreciation for being 'nice' anyway? Nope. Used and Abused. That's what you get when you care about being careful, nice and compassionate to people. Makes me think that people don't know good when they see it.

***** it. I'm done putting a smile and giving people advice. No care for the world. Time to finally have fun in my way. I can only be nice for so long and maintain a good image for people to see. I'm not really good. I give up. Ended up with nothing but hate for unrequited love. Should we keep treating people good despite getting an opposite treatment?

Can discouragement and negativity really deprive a 'good person' from being good?
Can you really be the love you never received?
I don't know. You tell me.

I guess that's the definition of a strong moral character.

The words swept me off my feet
No longer in the place where the shadows sleep
Facing the fear of getting attached to you
I can't explain how you made me feel like i do

The one and only woman, she did, showed me what genuine love is
She haven't had the slightest idea about it
It was the right person at the wrong place and time
No photographs were taken to rekindle in my mind

Labels are unnecessary
She had me at my lowest but she treated me like i showed the best of me
It was at the point that my feet is on ledge about to fall into abyss
But i felt like i'm on top of the world when i'm with her

She is the only 'what could've been' case that i truly regret.
I wonder how you could make me smile when i am a man full of hate
Your world is full love that makes me wonder why you need mine
The sun shines on you wherever you go
I'm a candle that is slowly melting it's life away
Yet her eyes glinted a mend for my broken soul

I'm lost for words every time you speak to me.
The feelings tried to spill out of my mouth
Like trying to get out in a small door all at once
Eventually nothing comes out


I would give everything to see that smile
Sometimes it's everything i need
It gives me joy and i wanted to say thank you for that
But nothing lasts forever, i knew that now

We will never be together
It hurts but you can never have everything in this world
I'm just here hoping to find someone as good as you
In the right place and time

My heart search for love once again
After an endless confusion,
Of whether how true is forever
It needs an eternity to fill the void you left

You loved me twice,
That was before i knew love
And after you made me feel what it's about
Now i'm just all out of it

I wanted to let you know,
My love is as real as you faked it
Sometimes i want to keep living the illusion that we created,
The fiction of how i never love you,
And how you always loved me

But i got tired of pretending to be blind
I want the truth to open my eyes and see
To be broken is all i got to be
The love i expected is not for me

I'll packed my things and go
Move on to another place
To create a world full of wishes
Where i'll be living life how i wanted it to be

Cause i don't know if love exist in the real world
Or how it's going to work in everyone
If pretending is the only way,
Then i'll be forever living the life in illusions

If it's the only way to feel the love