Nagsimula ang lahat sa mga tingin na abot kaluluwa
Nung ako'y ligaw at kusang hinahanap ka ng aking mga mata
Sa bawat lihim na sulyap ay isang 'mahal kita' na hindi mo nakuha
Di pa rin tanggap ang nakaguhit na linya

Nakakatawang isipin,
Na walang kaalam alam na sya ang pinaka importante sa buhay ko
Ang inosente sa ngalan ng pag ibig,
Na sya'y salarin sa pagbihag ng puso ko

Sa bawat kainan na ating napuntahan
Hindi ako nagsawa na ang istorya mo'y pakinggan
Sa mga sinehan na ating pinanuoran
Na mas gusto kong ikaw ang aking titigan

Ikaw ang bituin sa gabi na lagi kong pinagmamasdan,
Ang aking hiling sa bawat tingin sa langit,
Panaginip na sa pag dilat ko sana'y totoo
At ang buong sistema ng mga tula ko

Pero hindi ako naniniwala na hanggang dito nalang
Umaasa pa na sana'y pwedeng humakbang
Nasa likod ko ang pader at wala nakong iaatras pa
Dahil ako'y tao lang at ang pag abante ang natitira kong galaw

Gusto kong humakbang,
kung anong meron tayo
Gusto kong higitan,
ang mga nagawa ko para sayo
Sana ako yung taong pinagbigyan **** magpapasaya sayo

Binigay ko ang lahat na akala ko'y sapat
Ngunit hinarangan mo ang daan para maging tunay ang lahat
Konting lapit ay luwas ng mabilis
Bulong sa hangin ang damdaming nais iparating

Ilang luha ang iniyak mo na hindi kailanman mang gagaling sa akin
At sa mga ngiti na sana'y ako ang sanhi..

Hindi mo na pansin na ako'y nasaktan
Na habang buhay mag hihintay sa bakuran
At umaasa na sana pwede pang humakbang..

I did my best to keep you around
But you left me hanging and you strayed away
From where I am, I’ll stand my ground
Knowing that I can’t make you stay

Every sleepless night I think about you
How much love for it to be true
The look in my eyes is so blue
Wondering what I put you through

I see your face in every girl
The longing for you grows more and more
Love, you’re all I’m searching for
Even though things aren't the same anymore

Trees will grow, Flowers will bloom
The Sky will turn black and blue
But my love will always embrace
Always near you, soaking
Like how the sun shine on you in the morning

Time passed and days gone by
The rift that keep us apart will be mend
Towards the moment that we've all been waiting for
For you and I
To come out and pour our hearts out

It came, the words that I’ve been so afraid
To hear
The feelings that’s been kept for so long
To feel
The way our eyes are lock on each other like never before
To see
That your heart is not the same as mine

I did my best to keep you around
But you left and never looked back
I did my best to keep you around
To you
The person I've never had

Kay dami nang hindi mo katulad ang sinarahan ko ng pinto
Hindi labag sa aking kalooban na mag papasok kung sino-sino
Para mag kalat, mang gulo, at bantayan ang mahalagang bagay sa akin
Dahil alam ko na ikaw ang tahanan ko
At nakalaan to para sayo

Ikaw ang banyo na binabalik balikan ko na parang balisawsaw ako

Ang kusina na nagsilbing lugar, para iluto ko ang putahe na mas matamis pa sa mga ngiti mo

Ang silid kainan, kung saan lahat ng gusto mo ay inihain, dulot ng pagmamahal ko

Ang sala, kung saan ang tinig ng halakhak at tawanan ay maingat na tinatabunan ang pintig ng puso,

Ang aparador, kung saan nakatago lahat ng liham na dapat basahin mo

At ang kwarto, kung saan bumubuhos ang luha, na naging takbuhan ko tuwing nalulungkot ako,

Sabay mahigpit na yakap sa unan nang hindi ako bitawan nito

Ikaw ang susi para mabuo ang tahanan ko,
Isang katok lang ang tunog na gusto kong marinig galing sayo
Kung pwede lang tanggalin ang pinto na nakaharang dito
Ito'y gagawin ko

Isang sulyap lang kahit may harang na matataas na bakuran na nakapaligid sakin ay masaya na ako
Ipaalam mo lang na hinahanap ako ng mga mata mo dahil para sayo ito

Gusto ko nang ipaalam sayo,
Ang mga lihim, na wala nang espasyo para ipaglagyan pa
Gusto ko nang ipaalam sayo,
Na ikaw ang gusto ko, sya lang ang kailangan ko
Gusto ko nang ipaalam sayo,
Na tunay kang mahal nito

At sana'y alam mo ang lihim ko,
Na gusto kong ako ang maging tahanan ng puso mo

The words swept me off my feet
No longer in the place where the shadows sleep
Facing the fear of getting attached to you
I can't explain how you made me feel like i do

The one and only woman, she did, showed me what genuine love is
She haven't had the slightest idea about it
It was the right person at the wrong place and time
No photographs were taken to rekindle in my mind

Labels are unnecessary
She had me at my lowest but she treated me like i showed the best of me
It was at the point that my feet is on ledge about to fall into abyss
But i felt like i'm on top of the world when i'm with her

She is the only 'what could've been' case that i truly regret.
I wonder how you could make me smile when i am a man full of hate
Your world is full love that makes me wonder why you need mine
The sun shines on you wherever you go
I'm a candle that is slowly melting it's life away
Yet her eyes glinted a mend for my broken soul

I'm lost for words every time you speak to me.
The feelings tried to spill out of my mouth
Like trying to get out in a small door all at once
Eventually nothing comes out


I would give everything to see that smile
Sometimes it's everything i need
It gives me joy and i wanted to say thank you for that
But nothing lasts forever, i knew that now

We will never be together
It hurts but you can never have everything in this world
I'm just here hoping to find someone as good as you
In the right place and time

You're the only sound that i wanted to hear
When you say my name it's music to my ear
A work of art that will forever be a masterpiece
Only a sweet talk could remove this fear

I knew right then that i'll replace my priority
As for the figure standing in front of me took me to infinity
It brings me back from when i first played a tune
The hummingbirds in the summer of June

The smell of cigarette smoke that engulfs the place
While my thoughts flies through space
The moving of bottles, chairs and people
As the light shines for you on the center stage

Music appeared in human form
It was you who took over my soul
Embraced on the top of the world
Together, nothing else can go wrong

Don't ever fall in love with a musician
Music will always come first
You'll come second
But I've figured that the music is you

You're all of my favorite songs
The lullaby that i long for late at night
Serenade me till the end of time
I could care less if i die at any moment
For I've finally experienced the world that i knew

I want to prove it by way of action
Without saying those three words
I want to introduce you to my world
Hoping you'd do the same for me

Make me feel like we deserve each other
When it comes to you, there's always a way
Even when i'm facing my own struggles
No questions, i'll be there when you need me

I look up at the sky to thank God
For your existence became my salvation
You are that one good thing in my life
I don't ever want any of this to stop

But i made a mistake
Assuming that we think the same way
I gave everything that i got nothing left for myself
Can we really still call it love?

I want you to love me the way i do for you
Tell me how you feel about me
Embrace me when i'm sad
Laugh with me when i'm happy

See the pain behind my eyes
Tell me your secrets so i can tell you mine
I need understanding more than ever
If i made a mistake on loving you

I want to keep the smiles on your face
But i can't keep one for myself
I can't always mend a broken heart
When i'm broken myself

I'm lost and i can't find my way back to you

It was the lullaby that closes my eyes
Before the kiss of goodnight,
I dream of eternity for you and me,
For in reality, we sway with ease

Were holding hands watching the sunrise
Kissing till the morning light
No need to look up at the sky
You're an answered prayer from above

You are the shadow to my light
The map that leads me to right
Whenever i'm lost to this road that is never ending,
You are always there to lead

We talk about the deepest part of ourselves
Confessing every dark corners of our mind
We laugh about the people that broke our hearts
The jokes are on them, who made us this way

We were in good harmony
Nothing can take away this joy in our heart
The never ending smile on our faces,
The satisfaction and the promised for our future

But all of these are just fantasies
I can wait for all of these things,
It's not really a necessity to love someone to live a life
It's just romance, everyone can have that

An easy way to have temporary happiness,
Knowing we'll get hurt at the end
I know it's going to arrive soon
Because i can wait

I think I've met all kinds of women in the world
Except for the one that i actually want
I'm still left alone wishing for your love
Because i can wait

But in all honesty
I'm tired of waiting, tired of pretending that i don't want to play this love game,too tired of asking "when?"
I want to smile, hold hands, laugh, love and get hurt

I wanted this more than anything in this world
To love and to be loved right now
I got nothing left to do but look up at the sky
Close my eyes and feel the love that i never had

You've touch every inch of my soul
Allow me live that fantasy of yours
Let me share this world that i live in like its our own
Cause only in your arms i feel at home

I don't have a poetic way of saying those three words
But i have a lot of ways to prove it's honesty
I've never had any experience with love
That's why i'm willing to make mistakes for the sake of it

You became my universe when we kissed
So hold my hand and never let me go
I'm crazily in love with the imperfection of our own
Tell me that nothing can go wrong

You take me to paradise
You make me feel all good inside
You showed me all the finest sight in the world
I felt all of these things when you're beside me

I've seen all the eye catching attractions in the world
But nothing can match your beauty
I feel like i have all the riches in the world
And you have no idea how beautiful you are

I am the most handsome man in the world,
When i'm with you
And you still have no idea how beautiful you are

You opened my eyes to a world that is unknown
Where the hate is not easy to let go
They linger in my skin and bones
How deep is this love only you can show

You cleanse my ***** hands
That i wanted to touch everyone's soul
Real love, i search for eternal love
I'd give it all up to a pure heart like yours

Life is tough, no one gets along
Everything contradicts each other
They're in every corner waiting to strike
Ready to control our minds

I got swallowed by the grudges that i kept inside
Darkness took over that it matches my soul
I screamed my lungs out
On the brink of stepping of the ledge to fall

But i kept holding on to your words
You pulled me up with both hands
I kneel down in submission
Tears started to fall

And i look up at the sky to long for something more
Cause all my life, what's missing was you

After all these years
They're finally here in this moment
How sweet their lives have been
Those smiles that convey a successful one

The road made them strong and humble
On the table they have gathered
To exchange exclamations as they unite again
Cheers to those who grew up and endured the pain

The faces of the worlds toughest
Those who survived the struggles
Heads help up high, stayed
Even when there's was no one to cling to

But they know those were temporary
It's all part of the journey
Feelings, Disappointments and so
All took different paths towards a goal

Some didn't make it
The ones that let difficulty pull them down
Now they just observe a world
That does not care about them

The word quit is not in their vocabulary
That's why they're here together
Let the light shine on them
For they know that there's no shortcut to this

Life goes on, good things happen if they keep on living
So cheers to everyone who made it
There's always a hand to hold on to
At the finish line

They're all waiting there,
You'll see the reality
To the summit of nonexistent
Were dreams are far away

I want you to fall in love with me
Using words that i couldn't speak
I hope these letters create a bridge towards your heart
So you could feel what i feel

I love it when we catch each others glance
Then we secretly flash our smile to hide, the love that we want to show
Our eyes sparkled with anticipation
It is the hungry heart that wanted to be fulfilled

There are many times when i want to approach you
But your beauty seems like my greatest fear
Scared to be rejected
Or too afraid to be the one who'll take care of it someday

It takes so much courage to even write this
But in the name of love i'm willing to risk it
You are beautiful inside and out
The world deserves someone like you

Could i really love someone who i'm not in a relationship with?
I want you to be happy even when it's not with me
Be with someone who is more capable
My love is genuine but i'm not able to

I'm here at a distance
This is for you to understand
Cause i'm hoping for someone to love you like i do
I want you to fall in the hands of someone who knows love

We are all hungry hearts looking for their match
For someone to quench the thirst in our heart
To make us feel special
To make us feel that were meant to be

Don't ever wonder what i see when i look at you
Cause you are the one who deserve all the love in the world

Don't we all?

Beside me is my one and only
For my arms to hold so tightly
It was her eyes that engaged me
The way she smiled genuinely

The sun goes down
The darkness engulf the place
It was you and i till the dawn
While the moonlight shines on your face

I can only fantasize
Every girl wish to have your eyes
I want to be the one who gets the prize
And hope to win everytime

If it is love that i'm fighting for
These fist would break its bones
The melancholy that you would take away
Is mine to embrace everyday

We are like two stars in a pitch black sky
I watch as you shine every time
I want to pull you close to me
So i can see a thing of beauty

Only to know that you are perfect for me
I will play the fool and you will be cruel
There would be sad
And there would be you

As happy as you are
Understanding is for me
My tears are meant to fall
You will be there to see


I will be the light at the end of the tunnel
Walk the down the aisle
So you won't have to suffer
Then i will walk a thousand miles

To be with you
Is all i can do

I used to think that you’ll always be beautiful in my eyes
That your presence alone would suffice
You said it yourself, that once you fall in love
Everything about them is beautiful

It’s so easy to put it in words
How each day you gave me a wonderful feeling
But your image in my head is now blurred
I realized your beauty is not appealing

You made me feel unimportant
I couldn’t get over it
The feeling when you thought it was all real
But it’s not

Disappointed, I must say
On what could’ve been
Between us I thought there was never an end
Here I am no matter how hard I try
I am not attracted anymore
Or so I thought

To care about someone when one’s hurt
That’s what love is all about.

But I still think about you
Just because I don’t like you anymore
Doesn’t mean I don’t care about you
I said I’d never leave
And I never did

All these make up and i'd still think she's beautiful without it
The way her hair covers the side of her face
Those eyes that pierce through my veins
When she smiles and the way she laughs,
Happy, became my whole being

I don't want this to ever end.
I want to cherish every second i have with her
Words became the medium of affection
Smiles are the only confirmation
She became the center of the universe

I realize i don't need the best woman in the world
What i have is different
Because no one has ever made me feel this way before
She kept feeding the hunger of my soul
I love her and that's all i know

Her being beautiful is the only time that she is selfish
I can't look at another woman with the same impression
I was blinded, of her imperfections
Her smile is etched on my mind
I want to sleep so i can see her in my dreams tonight

I want to see tall buildings that towers over everything
Walk around with good food to accompany me
Feel how the wind blew differently
How city lights makes the night come alive
Allow me to forget everything tonight

I want to watch the moving scenery in the car window
With music attached in my ear
Nothing to fear, let the world welcome my presence
Where stars shine above to where i lay
I am finally free from yesterday

Moving feet that would lead them somewhere
How i wish i have some place to be
I want to follow their footsteps where there's no tragedy
Let's go in pairs and watch the world in a balcony

Amusement park full of colors
Smiling faces that wanders
Switching from one ride to another
How short an excitement can pass without the other

Walk around the beach while the sun is shining
Let the waves take over the sandcastles
Because we know nothing last forever
Yet i still build it to whomever i meet
Hoping it stays together

I want to know how it feels to be with someone
I don't want to look back at yesterday
I want tomorrow where we keep going even when it's difficult
I don't want another one to bite the dust

I want to get away with you
Memories aren't treasured without you
I want you to run away with me
But you'll be better off without me

It is the feeling of listening to a good song
Except that i have no favorite part
From the first tune to the last
Even the silence after beats everything else

I never thought that i'd fall in love with you
Not the thought of you or the idea of falling in love
But the fact that you brought excitement to my life
You made me see my worth that everyone is trying to hide from me

When i said that relationship is just a distraction,
I don't mind being a hypocrite
I want to be with you
Never mind the labels that people put on me

I love you
For who you are
From what i'm about to be
The person that will be here for you till the end

I have a lot to learn about the world
That's why i want to know every inch of you
Whether i'm headed to forever or heartbreak
Just know that this thing right here is real

You're the definition of perfection
I don't see myself being with anyone but you
Because there's no one else like you

I stay up every night to watch the moon glow
Glints of light scatters on the broken window
Sleep to overcome the hatred inside
You ease the pain by making peace tonight

Hop out of bed only to step on the shards of glass
It is my duty to endure the things from my painful past
Fixing myself without looking at the mirror
You remove the shadows to see myself clearer

I'll try not to miss you when you're gone
I take every bit of love i can get my hands on
I pray to God to teach me how to cope
Because we always build it up to watch it fall

Time goes by, people come and go
But i still see your face on every girl
I always wonder why people leave
It makes me wonder even more why you're still here

As i wait, the sun dried all the leaves
Days have become dull and boring
Picturing you next to me is hard to imagine
Even the smile in your photograph is not helping me

Cobwebs starts to form in the ceiling
Your scent still lingers on my pillow
I miss your whole being
Your sweet talk at nights is what i longed for

Nothing but you, who floats in this clouds of thoughts
Come back and make this fantasy come to life
I don't see anybody fulfilling my wish but you
Lay down next to me and forget the world

Come out of the lamp and be my genie tonight
And hear my simple wish of three, Stay with me,
Love me and Understand me

If i could sweet talk my way inside,
I hope you won't listen too fast
Your lips are calling for mine
As if it has its own mind
Some may call it unfair how i easily tripped and fell
But i still thank my feet for stumbling upon you as well

If words cut deeper than knives,
I wouldn't mind if the universe conspire
That if it's you who's essential,
You would be invisible to my eye
The heart looks for what it wants
I found your beauty at last

Don't be sad because its over,
Smile because you've found a reason
To live and make me stay
Let me hold your hand so you won't complain
Or be mine for just a day  

Don't wake me up from this,
If i can't seem to find you in my dreams
Then help me close my eyes,
Let me pray till i fall asleep

I want to be the embrace that has been taken away
Though i know nothing of what you feel
But my heart beats for you,
It seems.

There you are, engaged in your own world
Here I am, looking for one
Never been so sure before
This moment is meant for us

Hot afternoon turned as quiet as midnight
I asked you if you can introduce me to your world
I felt an unfamiliar feeling
You let me in

Stories surrounds us that’s meant to be read
Never mind the humid air
How you wished you wore a different shirt instead
It’s all clear in my head how you and I met

All I want is you
Beauty that can make my day brighter
Press release the imperfection
Still, all I want is you

Positive Thoughts?
Happy Days?
What more can I say?
I’m in love.

For the first time
I felt special
There’s no question for you and me
Absence of uncertainty


I showed the best of me that even I has never seen
You've let me in to your world
We shared it for awhile
It was too much, you said


Then you threw me out
As if nothing was special between us
I shared my world with you
You said you had your own

If only it was that easy to leave,
That would be the first thing that i'd do
Even if i had wings,
I would not fly with ease

Why can't I?
I want to be free

What does it actually mean?
Free from secrets
Free from lies.
Free from everything that is heavy

Those things have nothing to do with me
It is all about you
Just you
No one else

It is a given that life is not easy
But it is about the people that make it less hard
I am here
Just me
No one else

Trying to fill the void
Just to wipe the tears and catch everything that falls
With these arms
That longs for you to come back
Or for someone to fill the empty space

That only you could fill

It was the same sky, the same atmosphere
The cacophony of sounds that distracts the outcasts
The strong aroma of coffee that goes around from day to day
Only a special someone would make me feel this way
It is how the universe brought us together

Days have become empty
You became a necessity
Trying to escape reality, to find a way out of this
I turned around
For the first time in my life,
I thought i knew what i was looking for

I was lost in you
It made me feel like we were the only ones left that needs to be fixed
In this world where everyone is looking for a sign
The unsolved problem, the solution
A change that would prove its existence
An unfamiliar feeling, a special one

It was a sight to see
I wondered if she's looking for the same thing
The satisfaction that readers look for
Does she know that things don't always work well?
That books are far from reality?

Again, i was lost
Lost in the sight of her being engaged in her own world
Whether it's in the story that she's reading
Or the life that she's living,
She's lost

It reminded me of someone
Someone very familiar
It dawned on me that the sight
Was a spitting image of me

The beauty, the smile at every turn of pages
It is the eyes of wonder, the curiosity of what happens next
The excitement, the hope of what's about to come
She was carefree

It turns out that in the end,
It wasn't what we always expected
It was we who's gonna make the last smile
Knowing the outcome ever since the first page

She put the book down with dissatisfaction
I walk up to her
Then asked 'how was it resolved?'
She closed her eyes like she expected the question
On that moment, my life was on pause

Do we really need to know the outcome?
Would it do us any good?
All that matters is the journey
The pain, the joy, the expectation, and the disappointment
The feeling of flying, the feeling of falling

I wasn't part of her story
Definitely not her favorite
I'm just a book in her shelf, unread, untouched
She didn't get to know my story, my poison, my ups and downs
Even in her solitary moment
But i was kept, like a book on her shelf

I'm an uninteresting story
But i know, someday, someone is going to pick me up
Some reader who does not care about the outcome, but the journey
Some person that know things don't always work out

She opened her eyes, hugged the book and gaze far into the distance
She said, "It's always like that. You just feel empty. It makes you wish you opened another book. The ending always ruins it. But it doesn't disregard the whole story"

She left with no other word and never looked back.
I'm left here in the same place as i was
Waiting for someone to get me out of this shelf
To introduce me to the world
To entertain or to be kept

You haven't seen your reflection in the mirror
A cat fight between validation and figures
Who do you turn to?
When the world is who you're lying to?

Sounds that echoes through your bones
From painted faces who will never make it
You shouted 'how to handle it?'
But what would happen if no ones there to answer it?

Doing things that only slows you down
Fake friends are always there when it's convenient to be around
Little bit of money, little bit of fame,
How the tables have turned when you're in the ground

Ask yourself why they're the company that you keep
When true love is the only thing that you ever really need
Close your eyes to make up for lost sleep,
When that should've been for those who sees you in a dream

Pictures and laughter are always there to see
To show the world how amazing we're going to be
All smiles for the lies that you keep to yourself
When your mind begs for somewhere else

All those shadows got you covered now
Cause all of their talking is the noise you need to **** the sound
Of all of these voices telling you 'no one can help you out'

We're all alone.

You're just the only one to figure out.

On my own world
In a music that soothes my soul
I closed my eyes and let everything go
The waves embraced the sand in the beach
As i hear your heartbeat
While i stare right through you

I found myself in another world
The electric feel that spark the uninhabited universe
Where you and i always meet

We went up and touched the sky
Even though the music changed its tune
I lead the way and you followed
For there's a price at the end of the road

The sound of saxophone guides us through the night
As the symphony ignites the fire
We kept going till we reached the paradise

I hear the beat as it gets louder
The excitement grew as we get closer
And the rhythm of love goes faster

Our hands clasped so tight
Then we harmonize to the rhythm of the beat
As we slowly romance our way to conclusion

It was meant for both of us
To lay it down in this wonderland
Unlock the door for you always have the key
Then we will come back again to save room for my love

Life is a movie
And mine has been on pause for a long time
We’re not the actor, but the director of our own
We have the final decision on which road to take

It’s like a cold weather without a jacket on
A lonely night without somebody to lean on
Sitting up here waiting in the bus stop
The day when happiness took a detour

These places, memories, and people
They’re all fillers
Every week is a new story
But they won’t matter in the future

Don’t even bother to try hard
Just go with the flow
Until you find something special
Treasure it and never forget

There are times when days are hollow
Like we’re just existing, not living.
But each day we can always learn something from it
God will never fail to give us good things at the right time
Things will get better, we just need a little patience

I'm staring at the dark sky full of stars
Little glints shining through the night
I asked God for a sign
The wind whispers to my surprise

Life's wrong decisions finally brought us to the right
You are all of the above
Despite of all of these stars shining,
I'd still stare at you

If i could just be the one to hold you
Your so close, yet so far away
All i could do is gaze from where i stand
Like how Gatsby longed for the green light

You are the unattainable dream
If only it's that easy to achieve
To hold you and present myself to you
You are my guiding light to my dark grey life

There's a woman that travels in my train of thought
I've known her before but i don't know where
I want this beautiful sight to stay there forever
She's patiently waiting for her destination
While i'm hoping there's none

Her face is the last thing i see before i close my eyes to sleep
The scene is lucid that i could touch her in my dreams
I could replay it anytime like a photograph in my memory
I want more of this mystery to keep going between us

I fell in love with the forgotten memory
Not with the forgotten physical being
I'm in a confusion with the metaphysics of love
The feeling is real but the person seems unreal

It's the beauty, the innocence, that my mind does not let go her
I tried to recall everything about her and came up with nothing
She never leaves and keeps reminding me about her
I just want to know what's her purpose of being there

I close all the doors to the people who causes pain
But you have the key to unlock
I wipe the tears and forget
But you are always to remind
I pray and forgive
And tomorrow you'll be there with me towards a new day

I want to know her renewed beauty
Something tells me that i should approach,
The sadness in her face, reasons for her smile, the flaws that she hide
Everybody deserves a second chance

My mind says no,
But my heart says yes

She want me to remember her again
She want me to build a bridge that i already burn down
She wants me to remake a fragile glass that is already broken into million pieces, stitch a scar, rebuild a trust that i watched it fall down

Because true love knows no boundaries
I want her to get off the train to start a new life with me again

Softly whisper in my ear
My tense heartbeat, you'll hear
The endless cry of the world,
It was too loud,  I couldn't hear, i shouldn't care
As we engage ourselves in the ceremony

The lights are off, signaling the start of the play
Curtains slowly revealed the stage
The light shined on the center of attraction
I took my eyes off of you,

It's a woman. It's always the woman.
She seems to be finding something
When she already has all the things a woman could ask for,
Wealth, i can tell from the good clothes she wears,
The big house behind her, Happiness, from the smile that she flaunts,

Acquaintances swarm the stage, complimenting her from head to toe,  while she just stands there, waiting,
staring from afar, something's missing,
it was all part of the play, i thought.

Acquaintances exits the stage but the woman,
The Actress, staring at me, seems to be saying something towards me
I couldn't hear, All heads turned towards me,
some smiling, looking at me with an evil grin, some are lonely and some are angry.

Wondering if it was all for me
I forced a curious smile, i'm somehow scared
They all gaze back at the stage
I felt a sudden coldness, the hair on the back of my neck is standing up

I wanted to leave immediately, it's uncomfortable
She held my hand so tight and cold
I refused, but she insist
My eyes still focused on the stage, she's still staring at me, the Actress,
She whispers so loudly, i couldn't hear the sound, now i know that it was for me, i read her lips,
It said, "For once, look at the girl next to you"

I turned, her hands still locked on mine
Oh i should have remembered,
The 3rd of September, it all came back to me

How you love to watch these plays that i found so boring,
the unhappy ending, the unrequited love, the tragic resolution.
How you said that we should constantly face our fear, how you said that you'll always wait for me, that you don't care about all the material things, these fake people who are there for you, for your wealth.

That i'm the only one you need.
I took your love for granted
I didn't believe it at all
But now i do, you never leaved despite of everything, you're in the other world, but your still here with me, everywhere i go.
In my mind, my thoughts.
I don't want you here. i wanna forget. Escape all of this. Escape you.
I'm so sorry, I closed my eyes to make it all disappear

I finally heard what you said before the play
It was a never ending cycle, a loop
The grieving of your families, their emotions
A play that will never finish, it's what you always wish

To be an Actress, To watch the play with me, Together,
We watched the play, where i gave all my genuine love and attention
Now i remembered, it was indeed,
Your death anniversary

You try to be quiet and not respond, they'll say anything negative to discourage you.
You try not to hurt people's feeling, you'll just become very vulnerable.
You try to care about others situations, they'll use you and will think that they can walk in and out of your life anytime they wanted.
You try to be generous, they'll treat you like a meal ticket.
You go out of your way to make friends, it will lead to disappointments.
You are willing to do things for them yet they won't do the same for you.
You ask yourself if you're good enough or you just showed your best parts and good deeds to the wrong people.
You try to be a good person. You try to be nice. You try. You should.

Because that's the way to go.

In the end you become lonely and empty. Like a fishing net down in the sea for hours, assuming to have great multitude of fish, not knowing that the net is completely broken.

What do we do? Repair the net? Improve the fish hook? Go from artificial bait to natural bait to see which technique catch more fish? No. You freaking stop fishing. That's what.

Happiness. Satisfaction. Gratitude. None of those comes out of it.
You've been trying to help and improve others situation in any way possible, and yours is not improving any soon. They'll think everything is okay about you, because you spread positivity. Not knowing that you need fixing too. Stop trying.

The hell with being a good person anyway. It's self infliction. In this
uncompassionate and ungrateful world where pride is at an all time high, you shouldn't be. How they treat you is how they feel about you.
Stop trying to maintain the 'good person' image. They don't even appreciate it. It's only good for other people. You have to talk back sometimes. Just do you. So then you can't complain about anything. You won't get disappointed, hurt and annoyed. In the end they'll still judge you.

Since when did anyone ever gain respect and appreciation for being 'nice' anyway? Nope. Used and Abused. That's what you get when you care about being careful, nice and compassionate to people. Makes me think that people don't know good when they see it.

***** it. I'm done putting a smile and giving people advice. No care for the world. Time to finally have fun in my way. I can only be nice for so long and maintain a good image for people to see. I'm not really good. I give up. Ended up with nothing but hate for unrequited love. Should we keep treating people good despite getting an opposite treatment?

Can discouragement and negativity really deprive a 'good person' from being good?
Can you really be the love you never received?
I don't know. You tell me.

I guess that's the definition of a strong moral character.

My heart search for love once again
After an endless confusion,
Of whether how true is forever
It needs an eternity to fill the void you left

You loved me twice,
That was before i knew love
And after you made me feel what it's about
Now i'm just all out of it

I wanted to let you know,
My love is as real as you faked it
Sometimes i want to keep living the illusion that we created,
The fiction of how i never love you,
And how you always loved me

But i got tired of pretending to be blind
I want the truth to open my eyes and see
To be broken is all i got to be
The love i expected is not for me

I'll packed my things and go
Move on to another place
To create a world full of wishes
Where i'll be living life how i wanted it to be

Cause i don't know if love exist in the real world
Or how it's going to work in everyone
If pretending is the only way,
Then i'll be forever living the life in illusions

If it's the only way to feel the love

Because I am,
a block buster movie that you've never seen,
a hit song that you've never heard,
a best selling book that you've never read,
a must-eat food that you've never tasted,

I'm gonna be one of those guys that you've walked passed to,
You'll remember me

When you didn't get what you expected
When you're tired from the same ******* , different day.
When you've lost the will to build an empire like you both promised, When you've learn that love is not about finding the right person but it's all about accepting the person that you've found wholeheartedly.

This ain't my kind of mystery
He calls you a *****, i call you a princess
It left me wondering why it became like this
This could've turn different

I was just a little too late i guess
But nice guys finish last
It's always like that isn't it?
It was there for you when he wasn't

I showed you the very best of me
Completely present every corner of me
Gave you the joy that you don't believe in
I'm all for peace and love towards you

Because I am,
the destination that you've should've visit and settled forever.

I'm staring at a blank page this late at night,
And i couldn't think of anything to write
But when its you who's tattooed on my mind,
I could fill this page in no time

You are the ink to this pen that gives power to create romance
The horror that i can only imagine if you stopped loving me,
Just know that our love will never be a tragedy,
We'll laugh at the world cause they'll see it as a comedy

You make this black and white universe bloom with colors
I ran out of similes and metaphors to describe your being
No need to define,
We don't need a label to our relationship
You are someone that i look up to
A mutual respect that matches another level of friendship

Let's follow our dreams together,
Even if were never gonna wake up to each other
Know that i'm here with open arms
Ready for the bruises that your life  has made for me to embrace

A person who understand you,
That's the kind of person that you build an empire with,
When all kinds of emotions are acceptable to convey,
And weirdness are considered normal,
Someone who knows that love is a complicated thing

I am exhausted from thinking about you, singing for you, talking about you, worrying about you, and taking care of you.

You never listen, you never hear, never see and never feel

Sometimes i get tired of writing poems,
When it's all because of you,
These words are my subliminal way of saying that you should find the right person,
But if you end up settling for someone because they're too good of a catch to let go, this would be all for nothing

Then maybe it's time for me to love myself

Embrace the concealed scars deep in my soul
Catch the sickness that makes everyone leave this place called 'home'
Get in touch with the part of me that you haven't seen
Cause you have to love me for what i am

I am one of the pages in your book
That you cannot skip, scan or skim through
Every definition of the words, you have to expound carefully
The context seems difficult to understand at first

But i can promise you this,
It will be the best read you'll ever had
We could start on a blank page to write our own
The ending doesn't need to always be a happy one, i know it won't,
I just want you to be the one who will make it all alive

Never underestimate the power of persistence
It is one of the many forms of love

Don't judge the book by it's cover,
Cause you know covers don't lie
When you picked me out of a million stars in the night
I knew right then why some people cry,
From so much joy, it felt like my heart is going to burst

You can comeback to recall the memories
That's all the things that you know about me,
I'm just a memory,
Someone that you used to know

Until today, i'm waiting for someone to love me for what i am
Like you promised me to
I hope i can get access to real love for just temporary
Like how you borrow books from the library

Even if it's time is limited,
You are the pen that has power to write this romance
But it wasn't about us,
I wanted to see, hear and feel love even if they're words on a paper
Even if it wasn't for us

The train just kept moving forward
haven't really enjoyed the journey so far
too afraid to reach the destination without the answers
as to why the world disappoints me

i'm lucky enough to get this far
others just got a glimpse of what it's like
To have their time of their life
That'll forever be an imagination to them

I'm tired of just observing the scenery
Wondering when will i get my fair share of moment
To have someone to be lonely with
an answer to some of my questions

People became really shallow
Or i'm just too deep
No matter which one is it
I hope we find what were looking for

Nobody in this world want a safe journey in this train
We want to go out there and explore what the world has to offer
We want to feel, we want to be part of something
Some will get tired of looking out the window

We want to be the scenery
the picture that everyone stop by at the exhibit
It doesn't have to be everyone
Just someone who have the decency to look at the whole picture

At the end of the day, the train will suddenly stop
it will leave us wondering why we keep pondering the what ifs
instead of conquering our fears of what is
And it is too late

She always loves without expecting anything back
It was as if that’s all she know
Love, it’s what she became of
Like she was born to be there for other people

Her world is occupied with hope
There was never any room for hatred
“Focus on the good things” she said
She was always positive for the sake of others

All she wanted was to be happy
She would reach out to other people to be a light to their darkness
Do whatever she wants and ignores the ‘maybe’
Never afraid and always fight for what is right

But there‘s only so much she can contain
People who helps needs saving too
At the end of the day she cries it out till she’s asleep
So that when she wakes up, she forgets for awhile

When there’s no hope, that’s the time she’s hopeful
She never gets mad, but gets disappointed all the time
If she gets disappointed in you, she’ll argue that,
“You should be happy because I care about you”


Most girls would mind their own business
They would be selfish, immature, with no ambition
And fame is the only thing that they crave
But she’s too smart to be any of those kinds
She stands out and is outstanding at the same time

What she want is happiness
To everyone around her even if it’s not within
If happiness is a person she would embrace it so tight and never let go
Spend time with it like there’s no tomorrow even if it’s only for a day


She’s slowly dying inside as days go by
There’s nothing more painful, she said
“Being surrounded by people who don’t appreciate love"
She prays that someday, someone will come her way
And made her feel the love that she always craves

Wait expectantly.
She did.
So she waited. And waited.
It’s only a matter of time when changes will come and things would turn upside down
It’s only a matter of time till those people appreciate what she do
It’s only a matter of time till someone arrive and show her what love is all about
It’s only a matter of time.
Or so she thought.

If i sing to you till your heart's content,
Would you show up and let me fill the emptiness again?
You know i'm not like anyone else
When i'll be willing to do this for you out of love

I know you're tired and stressed
I can tell you an amazing story, so you'll be amaze
Cause i want to make you smile
Doing that would bring me enough satisfaction

I hate seeing you like that
I'd rather see you annoyed by my presence
Than being alone wondering what you did to anyone
Don't be too ******* yourself

You shouldn't push them away
When other people couldn't pay them to stay
There's only so much i can take
I'll confess, i need you here with me

I'll always be ready to catch you when you fall
I'll grab your hand and pull you up
I'll answer when you call
I'm here for you, hoping you'll miss it like i do