dead inside
can't think of anything to do
with my life

words
have vanished from my mind
same as all the joy
(when you left)

time
passes by
we grow older
and love will die

meaningless days
if you're not by my side
to complain about the dogs
barking on the street

meaningless days
without the coffee you used to make
when we were late and so afraid
of the life we had to plan

why are we still fighting?
if you left
what are we still fighting for?
if you left

dead
inside
can't think of anything to do
after you left me all alone

time
passes by
as silence grows
the pain grows stronger

is it fair?
if you left with all the answers
to the life we used to know

why are we still fighting?
if you left
what am I still fighting for?
if you left... me.

my little bright star
the brightest of all the stars
always next to the moon
it's been a while since i've seen you

today i looked at the sky and you were there
staring at me, almost gone
it's sad to see you disappearing

my little bright star
you were always there for me
when i had no hope
and now you're leaving

my stunning dark star
you were my first love
i'll always remember you
but it's time to let you go

my little bright star is going
my little love is dying
all my memories in this last shining

my little star is dead
and so are we.

i wish i could make you your favorite breakfast
and watch your favorite tv shows in the morning
fill you with kisses on your cheek
and tell you how beautiful you look with your sleepy face

and i wish i could take you by the hand
and take you to all the nice places i know
take you to that coffeeshop all cute and cozy
show you all the beautiful views i love

and i wish i could sing you beautiful songs
and make you smile till you don't feel sad anymore
cover you with a blanket in the middle of the night
and hold you so you can feel warm again

i wish i could hug you when you're sad
and make you laugh till it hurts your belly
and tell you sweet things that make you happier
and beg you to stay everytime you have to leave

i wish i could show you how beautiful you are
and take away all your pain and sadness
and turn it into comfort and joy
even if only for the afternoon

i wish i wasn't scared to tell you how much i like you
how much i want to kiss you and love you
i wish i could make you realize you are so worthy of love
and that love is not something to be scared of

i wish you could feel this way about me too
and that we could try and give it a chance
but you'll never know
and i'll never know
and that is just sad.

Pour me some wine
******* some smoke
I can't do it, it's too messy

You kiss my legs
I can't resist it
I pull you close
You push me out

Repeat.

It's complicated!
You get too close
I kiss your lips
Confusion

Conclusion?

It's okay now
You can let me in
While I push you out

Love, love me!
Please disappear
I need you here

Get out of here
I need you so
We're so scandalous

It got too messy
You said we're done
I pushed you too much

I never wanted that bus to come
I never wanted to say goodbye

We talk,
We know.
We kiss,
We love.

(Complications)

She walks away,
I fall apart.
I get together,
She starts to doubt.

She falls apart,
I'm far away.
She brings me closer,
I start to doubt.

We talk,
We don't know.
We kiss,
Maybe we're wrong.

(Simplifications)

She starts to cry,
I calm her down.
Love is here,
Why can't we see?

Blindness is gone,
I kiss her eyes.
She hugs me tight,
I can see her insides.

We talk,
Now we know.
We feel,
We can't be wrong.

(Solidification)

Touching
Feeling
Kissing
Feelings

So much happiness
So much love
Happy tears
And now the void.

We don't talk,
We know.
We don't know what we know.
What's going on?

(Fear gently approaches)

I start to doubt,
She's far away.
Bodies so close,
Never enough.

Beating hearts,
Holding hands,
Syncing sighs,
Silence awaits.

We don't talk.
Are we done?
We're so close,
Love can't be gone.

(Emptiness)

I start to cry,
She hugs me tight.
What does it mean?
There's no reply.

We're blind again.
What happens now?
If this isn't the end,
Where has it gone?

From the moment I met you,
You felt just like home.
But I should have known better:
My home was always the first
To betray me.

So my sister was born today
And we chose her name as Valentina.
Funny thing is that she decided to be born on Valentine's.
So probably I will call feb 14 Valentina's day forever.
Not a poem, but I wanted to share.
And by the way, it sounds like Valentin (in spanish)
with and 'a' in the end. Not like Valentine's.

:)

It seems like I've lost them
Since the year started.
I hate summer.

Although I hate how wrong this ridiculous sense of common we have for everything is,
Sometimes I just wish we were these two ignorant people
That think the world is wrong but we can't change it
And work hard just to buy a bigger TV

Sometimes I just wish we could live a mediocre life together
And never mind to all the things that happens around
Since our favorite show is reprising saturday night

I wish we could fight every day to decide who's going to supermarket
And what color should be our new car
And fight over and over again about if we should buy a dog or not
And stay up late playing scrabble with our boring married friends

Sometimes I just wish we were these two empty consumerist people
That complain about everything and fight everyday about nothing
But are so so happy
*Together.

Last night you said you loved me
And your eyes had the same expression of a homeless dog
But we know that pronouncing every letter of "I love you"
What you really meant was "love me, love me"
Words caused by the need of a warm body by your side at bed
And by the possible passion inside your chest - or your *****.

What I forgot to tell you is that my chest - or my ***** -
Has the same need of a warm body on my bed.
Maybe I - in all the human fragments inside me -
Have the need of having somebody.
Somebody, someone, some you.
What I forgot to mention is that
Perhaps that someone is you.

Make me a gesture, make me close
Give me the moon that I'll make you fall asleep

The night will fall
On the road the traffic light of who's gone
Doesn't light up when I kiss you anymore
It looks like I've waited my whole life to show
That in the street I lost myself one of these days
I completely forgot to win
But the wind from the sand brought infinity peace

Away from so much smoke
Girl who send me your kisses with grace
Make me laugh, make me happy
Sitting in the sand, playing with lucky
Doesn't rain doesn't wet
Don't look now I'm looking at you

In our book,
Our story is make—believe
Or make—it—happen?

Dreams of a lifetime that fade away in one day.
Dreams of a night that last a lifetime.

Between these extremes,
I saw a lifetime go away
While all my dreams turned into tears.

Everything that's left for me now
Is the shadow of our love
Hidden in our past
Because there is no sunshine.

The sun faded away...
With you, my dear.
Unhinging all my thoughts,
The shadow still come and haunt me.

The most beautiful of all the nightmares
To see the sunshine penetrates in your eyes
The look of an angel that disappears
When the moon is satisfied.

It's still night, my dear
Yet, I shall be dreaming
Beneath the shadow of the wind
That cannot take away this feeling...

I picked up a paintbrush and painted the sky
With the most beautiful colors
For when it rains,
It rains happiness!
After all, the secret of life
Is to see love in the simplest things.

Smile!
Because it's a beautiful day out there
And you have until the night
To find the colors of love!

The colors of your love.

You drift away
On the river of memory
And running on the bank,
I cry for you to come back
But slowly you move away,
And in my reckless run,
Little by little, I catch up to you
A little bit of lost ground.

On occasion you dive
In the moving liquid
Or, brushing against brambles,
You hesitate and you wait for me
Hiding your face
In your pulled up dress,
From fear that you'll be disfigured
By shame and regret.

You're nothing but a wreck,
Dead dog in the water
But I'm still your slave
And dive into the stream
When memory ends
And the ocean of forget,
Breaks our hearts and our heads,
The never reunites us.

He was only 2 meters away. I was looking at him and thinking I shouldn't. Feeling his smell and thinking I shouldn't. So I tried to turn my back and drive to the front door, but he was pulling me in. He was not touching me and didn't say a word, maybe he didn't even know I was there. But he was pulling me in and calling my name. And I tried to let it go, but I couldn't. My body was sweating, my mind weighed a ton and my feet wouldn't move. Suddenly, our eyes meet each other and he realized I was desperately calling his name and wanting him to pull me in. One step, two steps. I closed my eyes and my mind was free. My feet was floating, my body tottering but never falling. It was like I had wings and was only waiting for someone who could fly with me. We were dancing in the air. Everyone was looking and trying to follow as they could. My lips touched his sometimes, and I thought of all the beautiful things I have ever read but never understood. And I didn't say a word. I just touched his face and danced.  It was like my body was part of his body and I could feel the blood running through his veins, the beat of his heart, the pace of his breath... He had such a good vibration.
Then, in a oversight, I opened my eyes and I fell flat on my face. And the floor had no mercy. Suddenly, I was alone and his hazel eyes couldn't see me anymore, not even for mocking. And there was nothing left. No more letters, no more messages in the fridge in the morning, no more dances, no more kisses. My late nights were lost with no one to talk or discuss. So I thought that maybe there was hope, but who believes in that old boring lady? There were only a broken nose and a wobbly knee because of the fall.
And I wanted to hate him. I tried to do it all the time. But he was pulling me in and calling my name. And I tried to let it go, but I couldn't... So I went. I went because he was calling me. And he came because I was calling him. And we went forward until someone broke the nose again.

*"You'll never be a part of me, I know
Never free, we never can let it go"