Hayley

Hayley Dec 2014

Your daughter's suicidal
and you knew that she's not fine
after she confessed about her cuts.

You did nothing to help her.
You never tried to talk her through,
You never tried to get her off it.
You never tried to make her feel like she exists.

Countless night she spent
wondering if her mother cares about her.
Countless night she spent
crying till her eyes bruised,
searching for a reason to exist.

Hayley Dec 2014

Less Dead

Giving myself a taste of pain
by imagining the day
where you happen to lose patience on me
and watching you leaving me
just so I could feel less dead if it happens.

Or maybe at least a tolerable pain.

You mean so much to me that
I know if it happens,
I will probably feel
paralysed and dead
all over again,
just like the last time
when he left.

*(h.g.)

my insecurities tortures me

#love #feelings #pain #dead #insecure #patience #insecurities

Hayley Dec 2014

Seeking for Relief

I read books about suicidal people
just to have a taste of
death in my mind.

And maybe,
just maybe,
I can feel dead just for awhile.

A taste of relief
just for awhile.

*(h.g.)

title says it all

#sad #life #death #dead #suicidal #relief

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