A bird and a whisper

A bird landed gentry in my shoulder carrying a rose petal in its beak and hopped into my palms , where I could see a silken white dove called Hope , I could swear I heard a whisper , and a piece of tomorrows dream glowing on the blooming parchment that quivered in the breeze.
Just like that she flew away , wings thrusting on the gusts of inspiration , seemed to carry her adrift , As if the feathers were that, the same of an angel ,leaving a hue of promise in its wake , leaving nothing more than a speck of a shadow against the horizons gate.
Vainly I reach out hoping to catch hold for another moment to no avail, with the ever growing echoes of the whispering breeze to which held the wings of the cherub.
Only to open my eyes to the sound if my sleeping beauty laying next to me , her chest ebbing and flowing like an enchanted ocean , enveloping my slumber ,as I dreamt to the rhythm of her breathing.

all i ever did was love .

I’ve written you thousands of odes , only to have you tell someone else “you love them with all your heart”, a song I’ve never herd you sing to me.
I’ve spent most of my existence , living to love you, not a frame of mind , but, a way of life.
how do you let me treat you so wonderfully , knowing you never wanted to stay.
was it all a lie ?
you were not the first girl who’s lips have touched mine, but you are the first woman I’ve ever truly kissed.
i believe our souls were one in eternity , sewn in the strings of our heart and sealed in that very kiss,parted to be joined again on earth in this life.
i thought we were drawn to one another for as long as i can remember.
you led me to believe you loved me all your life , just not with all your heart i guess.
I’m haunted by the memories that we will never have , tormented by all the times you’ve hurt me , for they outweigh all the times you didn’t .
tried to show you all the time ,just how much i cared , you were my angel,i gave you all that i had ,you gave me indifference , i tried to walk away, yet i kept being drawn back, i tried to forget you , but how can you forget your forever.
all i ever did was love you unconditionally , all you ever did was love someone else more.
why did you ever let me love you at all.

At least for a day

At least for a day America came together
At least for a day , no one cared what color our skin was , or where we came from.
At least for a day we honored law enforcement and first responders in the like, as they charged toward the unknown danger to keep the rest of us safe.
At least for a day we let our military do what they were trained to do , instead of sit on their hands .
At least for a day we could do whatever we had to , to keep the country safe from further attacks.
At least for a day their was no partisan politics , where the government worked together for the greater good and put aside the petty bickering and said “ what do you need Mr President “.
On a day where the enemy tried to break America , we stood together as Americans , one body ,not identified by skin color , religion , or preferences , we all cried together, we all brushed off the dust , built a taller building , even though that is not the symbol of who we are , it was a symbol of what we aren’t .
At least for a day , we couldn’t be broken .
17 years later ..... we are fighting against ourselves , being encouraged to disobey law enforcement , divided again by our skin color , or religion , or preference , for a while , I couldn’t even say Merry Christmas without potentially offending someone.
Hatred is spewing on both sides of our government , we are being told to “resist “.
What happened ?
Do we need another tragedy to show us all we bleed the same color ?
The Bible says “ a house divided against itself can not stand “ Matt 12:22.
I will never forget the sorrow of that day , all the souls lost then , and the ones still recovering , I cried that day , and I cry now , because at least for a day , we forgot about all the other ******* and fought back as Americans , mourned as Americans , re built as Americans .
At least for a day , we stood together !
At least for a day!

Being in love, can
Fuse both falling,
And drowning,
Into but one,single
Feeling

Beyond love

I look past the furthest star , and yet I find another , for their is no edge to the universe , infinite , omnipresent , no matter how much their is , their is always more , like my heart towards you my darling , my affection is greater than what can be put in words “ beyond love “ .
Forever , had no beginning , and every step into , just grows even further .
Your enchanting eyes , your radiant smile , I hold you , I don’t want to let go , I wish you could feel the emotions pouring from my soul , the affection  “ beyond love “, such a sensation , deeper , further , wider , longer , outside of words ,past  feelings , indescribable , but pure.    “ devotion “ an attachment , our kindred spirits .
“ beyond love “
nothing can quite capture , more than all that I am.
To say I love you with all my heart is but only the beginning .
For my darling , what I have for you is more than that of my beating hearts calling , you are the most beautiful thing in the world to me and to other way to express , what I hold for you , is truly , and evermore ,  “ beyond love “

The flames reach out from the burning odes
Set afire and with indifference, fueled  and feasting on her rejection
The smoke bellows into shapes of the fading memories risen from the ink that painted them .
A lifetime of affection hopes and dreams , and sorrows, dissipating into the air , hours and hours of unappreciated heartfelt expressions
Reduced to nothing more than ashes , that are now remnant traces of a broken heart , that was once mine.
Tears aren't enough to douse the flames , just as futile as the letters themselves .
Unable to hold on to her heart ,and growing still are now smoke filled moments .
As the fire burns , I can no longer separate the happy from the sad .
So I just watch the fire burn

But for a moment

Like a gentile breeze out of no where , painting fading memories again with the vibrant hue of freshness in the sound of her voice .
Calm , yet with the bellow of a thunderous burst of affection , waking my soul out of its nightmarish doldrums.
For but a moment , she flew back upon my existence , bringing my heart back to life in an instant of her smile.
“My life “ , my love , but for a moment,
the flowers aligned with the stars , the moon again casts its smile over midnight , and I can rest in her daydreams , or echoes in the night.
But for a moment , she again is the next line of the ,“ happily ever after “, where the real story begins.
My tomorrows dream , my love of a lifetime , and lifetime love. The thought of getting to touch her silken lips once more , caress her porcelain skin , taste her tenderness , and love her one more time.
But for a moment , I fall again enchanted to the softness of her voice as it sends my heartstrings into a symphony.
But for a moment , she is mine once more .

Can't help who you love

Living life in a holding pattern because you can't help who you love
putting up with more than you deserve, because you can't help who you love
Always seems like your swimming upstream
Because you can't help who you love,
Hanging off the edge of the pedestal you put them on, to the person you fell for, the person you thought they were.
Because you can't help who you love
Just when you think you can let go,they remind you of why they captured your heart.
Caught in a storm of reality, winds of uncertainty , and yet that jolt in your belly when the catch your eye.
No, you can't help who you love.
So many decisions you know you should make.
But ,
You can't help who you love ....
You can't help who you love ...

Can’t run away

How can you forget someone that keeps coming back in your dreams.
I can’t run away .
It’s been some time now since you decided to take your journey with someone else , yet , I have been trying to let you be
It’s so hard to erase your name from my heart as it’s been etched on it’s beating walls all my life.
With each day’s distance , the pain is a little less , until a diffident haunting ,in my dreams , where I’m hopeless to avoid you , can’t run away from my love , yet watch you walk away from me all over again .
Only to wake to a raging tempest on my insides , and a pounding in my chest, and a mind full of fresh memories of a love that will never be.
Helpless is the heart that can’t hide from a dream , hurtful is to open my eyes alone , with another handful of fresh shadows of you choosing e else over and over again.
Wide awake , amidst the midnight darkness.
How do you forget someone that keeps coming back in your dreams.

There wasn't a dream,
until she made it one,
I never knew love,
until I dreamed
❤️

Fading memory

I see the moon , and I look at the empty footprints leading toward another fading memory i tried to bring you.
Cast off like the wilted petals of all the dying flowers I sent.
My heart beat only for you , I sent you an ode for every midnight star.
I thought being a part of “ us “ was a dream worth waiting for , as I’ve known nothing else but love for you, my whole life and beyond.
You are every where I look , every where I’ve been , and every where I wanted to go.
I wanted to be your “ knight “ I wanted to be your everything .
Do you ever hear my voice echoing in the breeze ?
Do you remember how many times I serenaded you on a rainy day ? Under the sun ? Next to you ? Or , on the dance floor while you rest your head in my chest “your spot” ?
You used to gaze at me with such affection , and I know I always loved you with my eyes , a soul full of affection.
Now all I have are a bunch of reminders , of fading memories , and I wonder if you ever really loved me at all .

It's not the man in the mirror
that I fear
It's the mirror of the man
that haunts me