Poetry,
The only way to
Bring Flavor
To my ears

Hold on time

I wonder if I could hold on to a moment , cast it off to the stars , and hand it to a memory for safe keeping in a dream .
To call upon an Instant wrapped around an echo where I held you on my heart and begged for the hands of time to take a rest from moving .
Eye to eye , on the threshold of each other’s soul , burning affection that can only be realized in the touch of an enveloping embrace .
The only thing I’ve ever known for you is love , not just a feeling , but just “ was “ .
Their has always been a gravity between our hearts , you have always been my comfort , and I know I could not be me without you .
I wonder if I could hold on to that moment , put the hands of time on hold , and just let you be mine ,forever .

Hold on to our kiss

So many odes , fill the midnight sky in the form of stars, as many moments passed since I’ve held you that final time.
Hold on to our kiss
Not a more perfect instant have I ever known , expressing our affection without an utterance murmured , yet an intensity of two souls joined at the lips .
Hold on to our kiss
Flowers wither and die , just like unreplenished  memories , first , what it feels like to touch you , then your smile , the places we’ve been , and the places we wanted to go.
I wanted to hold your hand into tomorrow , take a walk into our future together.
But will you hold on to our kiss ?
The scent of your hair , the sound of your voice , I wanted to be yours forever , wash away the memories with the hands of the new ones , and never fear the fading , as long as the beating hearts brush paints us new .
Hold on to our kiss
I can’t let go of something so perfect , molded together and parted to be born , only to find you someday in love.
Like a magnet to steel , the moon on the tide our lips drawn together .
Now , that your gone ,I wonder , did you hold on to our kiss ?
Did you hold on to our kiss ?
Did you hold on to our kiss ?

Hold on to the now

If I could etch this very passage in time to this very instant in now , where your hand is but a reach away , and the scent of your hair can catch the breeze upon my face.
Where I could punctuate your smile with the touch of my lips , and taste your skin on mine.
Tender kisses , enveloped embraces , an eternity lost in your eyes.
I wish I could hold on to the now , let the moon not set into dawn , or the sun not give way to the evening , you and I , here , now , in love , our love , everlasting affection.
All aligned in the moment , our moment , my angel
If I could stop the sand through the eye of the hourglass , and live in this dream you’ve made of our life as an “ us and we “.
Where “ loving you to sleep “ is but the end of each day , and waking next to an angel as the morning calls , just another day to live to love you .
For I wish I could hold on to the now , let my heart never be without yours in it’s echo , and forever is but our doorstep.
If only I could hold on to the now .

How far

A mere whisper on the dark side of midnight spoken into the air in the hopes of your heart feeling my calling.
Still traveling to the depths of tomorrow , I wonder .
I wonder if somewhere off in the distance the ears of the universe harken my voice and the waives of affection emitted from my soul and take homage to the love that flowed through the Galaxies distance and yet shows no signs of waining .
I wonder how far my heeding’s gone , as the Boundarylessness of the stars in the skies and heavens beyond , if it is known just how much My feelings for you can blanket .
Is my voice speaking still ,my very utterances murmured yesterday’s past and even years , still sprinkling the purest wordings of my loving heart, light years past forever , still as true as when they left my lips , that , “ I love you always “
Be it tomorrow , yesterday , or somewhere yet to come , I wonder if my words still flow , to the ears of the angels , yet still the stings of your heart .
I wonder if your heart is listening still ,and are my words still moving .
Did you hear it ?

I can breathe

Like an eagle , outstretched arms lunging into the abyss , with nothing but faith that it will carry his thrusting wings through the wind , trusting that no matter what is before him it will take him to where his hearts destined to belong.
I can breathe ,
After just your mere utterances of a lifelong affection , still raging within your soul , the other end to the gravitational pull of my own , which has been drowning in uncertainty without your angelic presence.
The tightening of heartstrings like two opposite sides of a magnet ever since I’ve know you.
I can breathe
You’ve made me whole , even before I knew what love was , I knew that you made me.
We are one , before we were ever born , Love didn’t bring us together , we brought together love.
I can breathe
I never knew a moment I didn’t love you , loving you is all I know.
I feel you pulling on my heartstrings whenever we are apart , only to have it ebb amidst your prescience.
I can breathe , because you love me.
I can breathe , because you give me life .
I can breathe , because once again , “we are”
I can breathe ......

i knew it was over
when you started seeing my poems
as just writings
and not letters of love
anymore

I know

I know you haven't said it , but I can see it in your eyes , you don't have the heart to tell me , but I know the fires died
The smile that used to melt my heart seems forced and burdensome
You built a wall between us I can't help but know we're done.
You no longer get excited , or want to be with me , seems all you do is think of reasons , of why we just can't be .
Even the simple little things , to you , seem now a chore , it's becoming obvious to me , you don't want "us" anymore .
It's such a helpless feeling , knowing our dreams are no longer the same , it breaks my heart to see the love in your eyes has waned.
I've no choice but to walk away , I have to let you go , even though I gave you my heart so very long ago.

I’ll step aside

Although I loved you since before memory , your presence a source of my smile.
In a day of digital technology , I chose the time to write , pen and parchment , odes of affection , sealed in wax , my kiss from afar.
My Angel
Even such a wave of affection , not enough to rise you above your yesterdays .
I stepped aside
I can’t watch you chase your past, while I wait here on our future , another empty promise.
You never seem to appreciate my affection , despite the ways I’ve shown you how .
My sun , moon, and stars , yes , the light of my heart you are .
Oh how I wish I were the same to you .
I’ll step aside
The little things , I always looked at you as the flower to my soul , the echo to my heartbeat, cherished you like a porcelain doll , just as you skin would glow under the lunar beams at midnight ,
I stepped aside ,
For the eyes that never looked at you that way , did he ever serenade you ? Or tell you “nobody loves you like i do “ ?
You told me I was your first love , and I told you the same.
I stepped aside “ our “forever , so that you could be with your past.
For even a mighty stone wears from the continuous flow of the water , as  I have form your indifference toward “us “ You never really got it .
So,broken hearted, and under appreciated, as much as I still love you with all that I am .
I’ll step aside .

I wonder if......

I wonder if you still imagine our kiss ... the way our lips fit together as if they were made from  the same mold destined to be one ever after.
I wonder if you think of me , us , or we ? The forever we were supper to have .
I wonder if you miss being enveloped I’m my embrace where you could hear my heartbeat calling your name as you rest your head upon it , if you could feel the affection emitting from my entire being .
Do you miss not having to wonder we’re my heart was ?
Morning ,noon,and night ,everything you .... always .
Do you miss my voice , filled with tenderness , soothing , and always wanting to comfort ?
I wonder if you miss my touch , my fingers through your hair , or how they brushed along your skin with the gentleness of a sculptor caressing his creation , and even those spots that would send a jolt through your insides , I wonder .
I wonder what your doing now ?
Do things remind you if us ?
I see you in everything beautiful , and in beauty , you made me see ....
You were the breath of my soul.
I wonder if you feel an emptiness In yours , do you hear my voice in your mind and wonder and I am ?
Is there someone else now ? Someone new amidst the clouds to witch you have taken them with just the magic of your gaze ?
Is there someone else’s name newly etched upon your heart , or is it still mine , but waining with every day passing in my absence .
I wonder if you still know how much I love you , how much I wanted you in my tomorrow’s , and how sad I am living In yesterday’s past .
I wonder if ......
I wonder ......
Do you wonder too ???

Left behind ?

I left these odes in the journal so that their may be something left  of my soul when I’m gone , perhaps some remnant of a deepest affection that no one may never know existed without the stream of words that bellowed from deep within my heart , into that ocean of a lifelong love .
Perhaps someday , someone will happen upon this book , heartbeats, captured in moments , etched on parchment , snippets of a story sewn together in the strings of a heart, the ink of a pen , to a woman , an angel , the love of my life , or , lifelong love , a girl I’ve asked forever.
I wonder if someone will find my words , and feel my affinity toward her.
Like the stars line the skies with eternal tales for as long as time has been , will someone see the same in my words , like she never seemed .
With no midnight sky to hold my heart , or no stone to bear the etching of a beating heart flow , without these words bound in my whispers , will I ever have loved her at all.
So I scroll these words into a journal , crimson ink , filtered only through an adoring heart , that’s loved her all my life.
My legacy , laced within the parchment of now faded memories , and hopeless dreams , that once guided my smile.
Without someone to read , will I ever have loved her at all .

Like a picture

Layer by layer snippets of yesterdays past place themselves atop of one another next to , and interweave , to form a picture in my heart , saved from a time together , cherished like a treasure and represented on a moments reminisce , like forming a flower petal by petal , or a lighthouse on a sea shore , stone by stone .
To bring that smile back to my soul , just like it was when the moment was being lived.
Like a picture ,
A tapestry threaded in heartstrings , sewn into memory’s kept in my dreams, to call upon at an instances notice .
A passionate kiss, your Silhouette under the moonlight, the porcelain glow off your face , or just the way you wore your hair .
Like a picture
On the walls of my torso or the pages in my mind whenever I miss you, I can find you.
No need to hold it close to my heart, because it’s already inside my heart .
Like a picture , another memory of you ......

For,
getting lost in your eyes ,
was the only time,
that i ever really knew ,
exactly just
where i was

" I show you the evening stars at night and whisper , that's everything I love about you, then I show you my empty hand, and say these are all the things I don't "