a dizzy dreamer
stuck in a bland reality
waiting in line
to get to the next destination

where are we going again?
"i don't quite know!
But I do know we'll get there!"
I want to hop of this endless train ride
or take a detour

I need adventure
I need life again
and I need you

Then:
My face was painted
with a cheesy smile
and I shone with the radiance
of one thousand suns
My eyes were big brown and curious
But as the years passed
My glow faded
The innocence in my face was gone
In innocence in my heart was gone
Now:
I am an empty shell of a human
And no matter what I do
I cannot remove
the disgusting stain
the world
has left
on my soul

covered by thorns and hidden by vines
but you’re still attracted to the light
that reflects from my broken sides
you want to swim alone tonight
but I know you’d let me hold you down
Velvet rose petals and shattered glass don't mix but still you’ll love me anyway
despite the scars I've left on you
you’d lay with me
on dead grass
and let me point out your fading colors
you’ll excuse my relentless attempts
to bury you under ground.
“you're destructive
and reflective,
I see myself in you”
As my ridges rip you to shreds you stay with me,
a ****** mess and a lonely swimmer,
another garden destroyed
with wasted raindrop tears

how do you bury sunshine
and keep it in a crowded box
it's just a shell
but it's enough for the wind to blow
and the cold rain to fall
a reminder,
as if we needed one,
that even sunshine dies,
after all

I know you half expect me to smile
when you tell me to
and you think that it doesn't burn
to rub away your beating breaths
when i'm constantly wrapped up
in off-white polyester
weathering alone between the sheets
you'll probably forget the shape of my mind
when you tried relentlessly to mold it into
something you could hold
i promise you're no monster
but you're not from this world
you're out of place,
this town always had a bitter taste
for you

you probably don't care
but someone does
you probably never asked
but then again,
no one did.