When I was 19
I felt a horrible pain in my stomach

it was the end of the summer
we were in bliss
and love surrounded us

Then winter swallowed us whole

the blood was just as bright as the sun
crimson and hot
dripping between my thighs

the doctor said it was unexpected

I didn't even know
but
I mourned the loss

I didn't even feel anything

How could I not sense this
budding
swell
of life

that was taken too soon

In my world
silence roars louder
than any sound system could

I'm not scared to fall in love
I'm terrified to try
and realize that I don't want you

The hardest part about
the end of a relationship
is knowing that
you don't love
the person you desperately wanted to

The thing I loved about our relationship
is that I could say
*******
and you would kiss me