I come home after a long day and pull my head off to put back onto the rack. It takes with it all the skin down my back, and I have to shake it out for lint. There it sits among friends and there I sit with mine, Netflix, my phone, and a bottle of wine.

Glanced in a toothpaste splotched mirror this morning and caught you. Sticky start to the day.
To see you instead of me...pale you, an oxymoronic wisp of a threat in every way.

I’m sure you’d think I’d be disappointed to be robbed of my soft frame, long black details and façade free of shame.
I was only content to fully realize resistance to be inane.

But I yearned to pass through glass and play with my old-new self…
I’d have shattered it to pieces if it weren’t for our health.

1
I can no longer justify Machiavelli with romance
Months of missing you and our terrible glee
You were right—**** me.
3
My friend who loves my garbage heart
I dread the day we toss out the ruse
Inevitably one of us will choose
2
If the world was fair, you’d be 1 on this page
For memory of simplicity, pure, shared
I’d trade 1, 3, and 4 and let three be spared
4
You are what proves I was never in distress
I don’t love you, I don’t like to keep you
Even though you give yourself up to me when I do

I crave a love so deep that
I KID, I'm kidding
I crave instant gratification
Lust for highs and pursuit does my bidding

Save for me your girlish fantasies
All my pretty flittering friends
I’ll help you pick out the colors
But quick relief is my happy end

it's contradictory
the way she acts and what she says to me

But was it a definitive answer?
You should go back and ask her.

Don’t tell me something
Unless you realize there’s nothing
I could ever possibly care about
That could come out of your mouth

Was what she said
So thanks, man, but I think it might be dead.

Why is 'might' your take on that?

I know how they work, she'll crawl back.

clearly

beer me

I don't want to say all the things I came here to say to you
I don't know how to face all the things that I put you through

But I know it's time to let out what I keep inside
Well, I can't, Oh WHY?
Guess I'll just keep on tryin'
I won't deny, I don't know what to do with my life
But I can't rewind back to a better time
Back to a better time...
Back to a better time...

I don't wanna play all these games that I played before
You wanna be by my side, but you'll wind up on the floor
I wish it wasn't this way, but I've got no choice
I hope that one day soon you'll find your own voice

But I know it's time to let out what I keep inside
Well, I can't, Oh WHY?
Guess I'll just keep on tryin'
I won't resign, you bet I'm gonna keep on fightin'
You pig, you swine. Why did I believe your lies?
Why did I believe your lies?
All you say you do is try.
All you'll ever do is try.

I, parasite
Eating selves
For a while
For a night
Feeling low
Getting high
Gluttonous, contrite