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315 · Jan 2015
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Bella Anima Jan 2015
If there was one thing
I could do right now
It is to stop crying
And **** myself.
I feel so ******* small rn
314 · Jun 2015
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Bella Anima Jun 2015
I feel suicidal
And im ******* scared.
312 · Dec 2015
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Bella Anima Dec 2015
Nothing is wrong
But nothing feels right.
Let me figure this out tonight.
295 · Sep 2014
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Bella Anima Sep 2014
As I stood waiting for the lights
To change so i could move forward
Among the thousands of souls around
Have never i felt so lonely before.

The lights changed and I
Continued walking forward
But have never I felt so empty before
Even as I breathed.
Every single day i have a different feeling and sometimes i do not understand them.
293 · Dec 2015
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Bella Anima Dec 2015
Let me breathe
So my brain has the oxygen
It needs to function.
279 · Sep 2014
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Bella Anima Sep 2014
It is tonight
That I wish to close my eyes
And wish that opening them again
Would be impossible
Because my days
Are filled with mistakes
Filled with so much pain
That I cause to the
People I love
I didnt even mean to
What the **** am I doing
What the **** am I thinking
Am I even ******* thinking
I am a joke.
Do I make you laugh?
No
That is how much of a joke I am
Lies
Lies
Lies
How can I not even be ******* aware
That they are all lies
I am stupid.
I've lost you
That is for sure
But if you would ever come back,
I'll hold you closer
tighter
Than ever
Because losing you kills me.
276 · Aug 2014
Bug.
Bella Anima Aug 2014
I am the bug
That flies around you
To watch over you
Hoping to protect you, little girl.
But you will push me away
Because after all
I am a bug.
Useless and small.
Hate being small and powerless.
270 · Sep 2014
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Bella Anima Sep 2014
With every single breath i take,
I will remind my foolish self
To not do it again.
242 · Aug 2014
Today.
Bella Anima Aug 2014
Just the other day
I told myself
I will move.
I will love.
I will live.

Just the other day
I wiped you away
From my sleep.
From my thoughts.
From my steps.

Just the other day
I started to breathe.
I could see.
I could think.
I could feel.

But today,
You came into my life
So beautifully. Again.
I stopped breathing. I
Fell all over. Again.
Stop haunting me. Please.
236 · Sep 2014
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Bella Anima Sep 2014
A mistake I've done
I would blame
On no one else
but me.
A mistake I've done
That would take
Everything away
from me.
Let me just fix this
Because
I am as broken
As you are.
233 · Aug 2014
Comfort.
Bella Anima Aug 2014
Times are hard.
I need you here.
I'll be here, you said.
But i dont see you anywhere.
Its getting harder for me to bear.
I miss you.
The reality is seeping into my skin.
You're gone. I dont see you returning.
I am suffering.

Hold me as i cry.
Encourage me as i try.
Dream on, Miss Reality said.
Because all that is left is goodbye.

Just come into my dreams, at least.
You can comfort me there.
That is enough.
Because times are hard
And I need you here.
224 · Jun 2014
Dread.
Bella Anima Jun 2014
The light is fading off
The grip is loosening
The tears just cannot seem to stop,
It just keeps flowing.

We know it is supposed to be
Over
But we just do not want it to.
I certainly do not want you to go further
Because i am still
Loving you.

But we know,
That either today
Or tomorrow
We have
To let each other go.

We long to be
In each other's arms
But we never know when,
The time will come.
All we want to do is
Be together
But we have to,
Let each other go.

I cannot stand
Missing you
You are still living
In Me.
In My Heart.
In My Mind.
In My Soul.
And you always
Will
Be.

— The End —