The love song I lost
The notes erased by cold words
The heart beats I couldn't control
The harmony that couldn't harmonise
The warmth that hit a pause
The keys that were never heard
The emotions I never pushed play for
And the simple words I can never say

One, Everything is blurry except for you
Two, Your soft touch
Three, Your warm breath
Four, I'm getting goes bumps
Five, Our moans fill the air and make a beautiful symphony
Six, We're moving in perfect harmony
Seven, The lights go red
Eight, My mind goes blank
Nine, We've hit our ******
Ten, The final kiss before I fall to sleep, locked in your embrace and comforted by your warmth...

We harmonised perfectly
You were my conductor
From our song I learnt
How to fast forward and forget
How to Rewinded and remember
Even as our song fades away and hits its pause
The beats still go on forever more
You were my one hit wonder
What more could I say?

You’re in the way again
They probably would’ve been happier before
Imagine it
Think about it
You know it’s true
You tell yourself it’s not
But look you’re being selfish
You silenced it didn’t you?
But look it’s still there..
You should offer some kind words
But you’re out aren’t you?
Listen to that voice
What’s it saying?
“It’s because you’re nothing good, you bring nothing good”
You remind yourself they’ll never see this
No one will
So just do it
Go on….
No ones gonna care anyway
So just shh…and sketch it out
Then lie to them later
Tell them something good this time
They won’t believe you, but you may as well try
Good luck…liar

We smile, We talk, We’re friends
But I loved her since day 1
She smiles, We’re friends, She talks
I listen
She tells me everything about the shows we watch
I want to hug her and tell her she’s beautiful
But I hold back
We laugh, We relax, We get along
I see her from afar
She smiles at me
I force a smile back
I watch as others hug her, snuggle her
I watch as she playfully responds or lets them be
I watch how close they are
And I smile, she’s so beautiful
She smiles and my heart races
I see her happy, I feel happy, I think about it
I love her and She loves me
It’s different though
She loves me like a friend
I love her as someone special to me

If someone saw this would they worry?
Care?
Probably not
Just tell them a story
Ideas
Planning
You’re fine
Go to sleep
Go shower
You’ll feel better, then go to bed
Sleep
Take care of yourself and no one will know
Put on a grand smile and hide other looks behind closed doors
Mask it all