at 3 am when you and i lay in my bed
you wrap me in your arms and intertwine me with your affection
i feel guilty
for i am not the one you should be intertwined with
then you whisper words that caress the loneliest parts of my soul
and i drift into what could be
but once i am not in your arms
and we are untangled
you intertwine with someone else
the someone you call your girlfriend
and i hear the i love you’s slip off your tongue
the same tongue that told me that she wasn’t what you wanted anymore

you look me in the eyes and whisper to me, “i want you”, my lips quiver and my breathing becomes heavy
my body doesn’t know how to react because no one has ever wanted me before