I loved you for every reason one shouldn’t fall in love.
Every word, every action you lashed out forced my heart to long for you even more.
It never was a conventional love filled with dreams and hopes for a better tomorrow.
Rather it was a love of the fallen clinging desperately onto the failed perception of him.
Days and weeks whooshed by in a storm stinging my skin with subtle reminders of your betrayal.
Yet I clung onto a moment of the past and loved you even more.
Brutal words raining down like piercing knives made no difference.
The mistakes, the faults, the cruelty; I loved these more than the possible beauty you could have been.
This never was a love of lovers set to last an eternity.
It was a pained love meant to cease one way or another.
This love of madness and stupidity would soon leave this tortured body.
Leaving it cleansed and pure of all the pain it caused.
It was and always would be a selfish love never meant to be returned.
Just meant to heal and strengthen the once wrecked soul.
And if by a sick twist of fate you could turn around and love me, you would have to let go.
I’d kiss you chastely on those childlike lips that have felt countless many and walk away.
You would finally be whole with the knowledge that that mess of feelings and actions had a purpose.
Walking down your own set path as I on mine you would smile at the glimmering hope of a future of honest love promised to you.