It sits in my stomach / Resting, waiting.
Unsolved, / But not unwarranted.
A problem.

It stirs / it bristles as it sits up and stretches.
Yawning / pandiculating.
It's awake.
\
It begins to gnaw.
Eating you alive from the inside.
Encompassing the whole of your mind.
Focus.
Focus.
Focus.
You can't.
You run.
You can't.
You hide.
You can't.
You breath.
You can't.
You can't.
You can't.
It is there.
It lives on.
It cannot die.
It thrives.
It grins.
You collapse.
It wins.

if you choose her I
will understand. My heart is
breaking regardless.

You say there's a gloom in my presence and grey in my eyes
That i look the same but something in me is not alright

You say there's something about me that misses the eyes
That there is so much more to me that i try to hide


You say there's an aura of mystery in the words i bear
That i am what i am not in the shadows that i do wear


You say I'm different than any other person you've met
That I'm not easy to remember but very hard to forget



And all i can see are the lips moving and you keep getting away
I know it's hard for you to digest but i was just born this way


I had my share of the traumas but they weren't carved in stones
Sometimes they're already there before one is even born


Some scars don't reflect on the surface, you have to dig deep
Some eyes don't have tears even when the heart does weep


I wasn't made into what i am, it always flowed in my veins
Some hearts are filled with it, some are just born with pain


You say i always lie that i have walked on a different way
But look in my eyes can't you see that i was just born this away

You should know that she's ruining you
I think she has already
You think I'm the one who's ruined
I am but at least I haven't changed
You've changed, you've changed a lot since you've met her
She left you and hurt you more than once
you still love her
She's cheated on you more than once
and you still love her
And you forgave her and took her back every time
I was your friend
I tried to help you
But you pushed me away
by ******* me off and using my weaknesses to hurt me
This is what has happened to you
you turned into a *****
And you said you saw why I tried to **** myself, but did you see why your girlfriend did too?

Sorry I'm not good enough for you
How am I suppose to be good enough for you when I'm not good enough for me?
I can't satisfy society
Can't satisfy anyone, not even myself
~sigh~
I'm not sated,  neither is society and society never will be
No one will ever stop being thirsty or hungry or greedy
No one will ever be sated
I want  be sated but I don't know what I want anymore
Our generation wants everything and even when we get it we'll never be happy with it
We'll never be sated or happy
Cause having everything is nothing
Because we can have everything we thought we wanted and not want it anymore
Cause if I really wanted to be sated
I would have everything I need....not what I wanted