Remember me? You thought I left you, but I will never leave you. I’m the only thing in your life that will never leave you You may not want me, but you need me I’m a part of you You’re nothing without me So close your eyes I’m in control again
No matter how many times he hurts you No matter how many times he wrongs you No matter how many times someone tells you how dangerous he is You crawl back
You crawl back with a head full of muddled thoughts Searching for satisfaction Convinced that he’s your salvation
Each time you lie next to him In a fitful sleep Bearing your guilt as he sleeps smugly and soundlessly beside you Because he knows that no matter how much you fight
Why am I smiling? I cut myself on my thigh I saw the blood rush out and I knew I’d done a terrible thing So why did I smile?
I dropped to my knees and forced ******* down my throat I saw this morning’s breakfast come up and land in the toilet bowl I knew I was damaging my body for good So why did I smile?
I didn’t eat for two days time My body ached and my mind ran amok I knew there would only be more pain So why did I smile?
I damaged myself I hurt myself in ways beyond repair I felt the pain I thought I deserved Why does this make me smile?