the night that never happened
what a blur
the morning that never came
what a blur
the clarity that never followed
what a blur
your love
what a blur

i thought you loved me

I.V. Test tubes.
I'm going under.
No clue
How much longer I'll be here

Strong arms. Soft eyes.
This is love,
No lie.
Wish I could cure your crippling fear

Eyes roll. Can't stop.
Time is passing.
Tick-tock.
I'm passing out again, my dear

She's gone. God, please.
Don't take my angel
away from me.
She's the light that keeps me free

Your kiss. Your warmth.
You're the last thing
I could touch.
Your lips release me into Light

I'm above. You're beneath.
Please don't worry.
My fate was sealed.
The gates of Heaven lie in sight

She's gone. I'm gone.
I am nothing
if not her man.
I must join her in that place where all is right.

anything
that we do
now
no longer
matters
if it isn't
with each other

It is both exhilarating and frightening to look at one person and see your entire world.
Terrifying to wake up in his arms at 3 am and admire the shape of his lips,
The warmth of his skin,
The way the light from the window accents all his best qualities.

It is intoxicating to kiss him when my body is so full of love that,
like an erupting volcano,
I can no longer control myself.
Thrilling to look up and see him looking right at me.

How intimidating it is that he has no idea that the stars are in his eyes and his smile is the moon.
And how I feel every bone in my body melt when he kisses me.

But,
more than anything,
How wonderful it is to love,
Wholeheartedly,
Without hesitation.