last time we talked, we
said nothing of importance -
happy birthday wish
unclench your hand when you sleep, my love.
you will feel better in the morning.
why is it always
her you find yourself wanting
when I’m not around
i keep looking for excuses to get upset.
and i wish i could stop finding them.
I feel off again.
I don’t feel myself, and
I don’t feel
Our selves are in cycles that rapidly change in the same way as my episodes.
Drunk with jealousy, I take another sip
And when I throw up, you catch it
My timing is always off
He knows this much is true.
I crept behind you and shoved you off
Ignored the feelings inside you.
Let’s go back a little while.
And remember our kindness too.
We always find the rope snaking back.
I’ve treated you so cruel.
The date’s creeping up.
Scraping the corners of my thoughts,
Like the knife you used for butter
You gave me so much.
In one squeeze of your hand,
In a few words that escaped your aching throat,
In my entire life, you gave to me
You did all you could.
We did all we could.
I should have done more.