dog pillow

dog pillow Apr 2020

ticktock

My timing is always off
He knows this much is true.

I crept behind you and shoved you off
Ignored the feelings inside you.

Let’s go back a little while.
And remember our kindness too.

We always find the rope snaking back.
I’ve treated you so cruel.

dog pillow Nov 2019

dad

The date’s creeping up.
Scraping the corners of my thoughts,
Like the knife you used for butter

You gave me so much.
In one squeeze of your hand,
In a few words that escaped your aching throat,
In my entire life, you gave to me

Care.

You did all you could.
We did all we could.
But I.

I should have done more.

dog pillow Nov 2019

spiral

It seems to me that time is slipping;
Moving quickly and it’s already

Wednesday?

Have I ever felt time the way I felt you.

Will I grasp the waste of the winding clock?
Will I consume it by train of thought?

Day in. Day out.
Queue the violins.

dog pillow Nov 2019

que sera sera

It’s been a long time since I’ve slept alone in the winter.

It makes me miss the snow.

And the freezing feet that touched my legs.

But you were still warm.

And so was I.

A familiar way the light shines through blinds.

A familiar way I say “I miss you” every night.

Whatever will be, will be.

Nov 2019

xmxrgxncy

waste

chlorine is toxic
hindsight is 20/20,
but i never should have kissed you

dog pillow Nov 2019

lost and

It finds me first
In the space beneath the lungs
A rapidly cycling movement
Trickles down, seeps like a sponge

The pressure lifts my breath up now
Faster
Faster
In and
Out

The feeling I have punches my gut,
And claws its way straight to the mind.

I wish what I’d found weren’t so devastating.
I wish I didn’t find it this time.