Why don't I just cry
Let my emotions go
Why do I hide behind this smile

Why do I have this strengh it can't help me here
It won't take away these tears

Why don't I just cry
Is it fear
Why can't I just shed this tear

I just won't cry
I'll just drink another bear
It will take away these tears
It'll give away theses fears
Maybe then I will be the me I want to be.......

I wish I cold cry, but my pride stands high. So I will just keep on smiling until I die.

Talking to me
Not even noticing
That I've been crying

Life is so ruff
So many mistakes
So many rain drops on my cheeks
I make mistakes
So do you
It's not even that serious
So don't be mad

I don't need you
I only allow you in
If I want you in
Don't tell me I need you
I'm fine with being alone

But I'll still shed a year
If you decide to disappear

I'm sorry if your mad
If your angry
Or disappointed
But it's not even that serious

I say I don't care
But now
In the moment
I'd like three things
A blunt
A blade
And some alcohol

At one point in my life
I was a grenade
Waiting for the perfect moment
To destroy everything that I loved

At this point in my life
I am a sun
Waiting to shine bright
To make the darkness disappear

*Everything is finally falling into place.