I no longer say I love you at the end of the day,
finally you understand I do not feel that way.
I've been silently  begging for you to tell me
that I was never really a part of this family.
This is how I'm feeling.
And I'm not certain I am healing.
Some days I crumble to the floor
from the pain that  is settled in my core.
One day I won't come back,
for in my heart, you've left a crack.

These dead stares across the shopping mall
Wouldn't I care if I could have them all
Fingerpainting these eyes
**** photos: camera shutter sighs

But her breath is morse code
And my words are falling
Her dial tone dilates
As her moans are calling

She fell in love with a filter
And I fell in love with someone's daughter
We took pictures in the summer time
And she threw them into the water

When she lies, her cheeks flush
She swears that she doesn't care much,
as she sits in her underwear
with a light grin and a heavy heart.

She felt her pulse by the bed light
She was sad that she was alright
I watched her paint her dad on fire
while holding infant her.

I heard the window shatter
She never said what was the matter
I found her on the driveway,
broken like a family picture frame

***, hot water, whisking,
smoothly blended, tea bowl, spring,
tea garden, thick, quiet.

Step 1: notice that your body is covered in skin
Step 2: say, "Wow! I'm really Skinny!"
Congratulations you are now skinny!