When you decide to give your all to just one person
Make sure they're in it too or you'll worsen
If they backhand you with lies and decipt
Take 'em back to the store with receipt
Cos they're faulty, they're broken not you
Don't except less just because they can't show they love you

Check yourself and get educated
I don't mean a school,that's indoctrinated
Misinformation and truth,separate it
Always stand firm even if you're getting hated

Don't believe the hype
When you can see with your eyes
Them trails in the skies
The corruption and lies

Politicians
Doing dark **** to children
Kidnapping them outta homes
Before they **** them

Convince ya'll
That you're fighting for peace
Its an oxymoron
All those that fight,end up deceased

And all you
That're slinging grams on the streets
Is prison time worth
A a shoebox full of sheets?

You could try and live clean
Or so you think
Air and food poisoned
Even what you drink

The more you dig
The more you find
Mass conspiracy
To poison your mind

From sociopathic
To gang mentality
To social media
And what its tellin me

Get inspired or intimidated
Metal outlook is reciprocated
You don't wanna lose when you could have made it
You know the game and played it
Sucesess that you coulda tasted
If you move on from getting extra faded
Dreams and actions should be amalgamated
Through all the doubt and fear to be waded

I got my eye these golems
As they weasle and breed
See the lust in their eyes
As they watch eachother bleed
The sad sorry truth
They don't wanna be freed
Each wanting to be on top
Some heavy inhuman greed

No empathy or kindness
No truth heard audibly
I wish I didn't see it
Speaking honestly
But it is how it is
And its what they wanna be
So as my act of selfish want
I'll vent through rhyme odyssey

I hear that some have disposable income
Well it turns out my love is disposable
So where is the staple for them
I ask?

I walked many miles
Through fields,in sun
Taking it slowly
I never run

I stopped to appreciate
The beauty around
Miles of fields and trees
Nothing could abound

No civilization
Wild and free
It may not be for all
But it suits me

Mail order T's & C's
Describe perfectly how I feel
The parameters have been breached
But I still value you as a customer
Please come in
We want your service
Even though you steal moments from our shop
Like cheap sweets and magazines
But we are real,we are here
So hear,our call to you
We love you,oh valid and wounderous custom of love
And we wouldn't trade you
For anyone
So,please please please
Love me enough that this isn't real
So much,that my eyes lie and my brain is numb
That I'm living in the shadow of hope and now fear
So much,that you could be honest and take the stolen golds out your clothes place them on the side and say sorry
I didn't want to watch the CCTV back just to see you steal what I've worked so hard for
Just for you to say "*******" and walk out the door
Like so many that came and went before
Because I'll sit and wait
Forgive,self hate
Because we love you in our store
Even if you steal

Stitch by stitch I built a sacdsack replica of you
So that little creepy has someone to hold on to
And baby I can't stand to lose you its true
Because each day together I feel brand new

She leads her loyal dog up the path
She tells him "I love you"
She makes him so happy
He would never betray her
He only sees love
He wants all his remaining days with her
But she is made unhappy by him
Even though happiness comes from within
He does everything he can to make her happy
He doesn't ask for anything but to be held and spoken to like he matters
He stays away as much as possible
He takes himself for walks
He refuses to show heartbreak when she tells him she doesn't want him
He brings her gifts and trys his best every day
But it wasn't enough
She assures him,"its for the best"
She loads two bullets into her gun
And shoots him
Once in the head
So he cannot think
And again in the heart
So he cannot feel
He isn't dead
But she leaves him for dead
Blood pouring from the wounds
Tears falling from his eyes
All he wanted was love and happiness
Instead he was discarded like an unwanted toy
His love was his downfall
His trust now destroyed
He howls but she won't come back

He dies alone

Ouch
That's right in what I feel
And its a deal
That you get to walk away with my heart
While I stand back and have to start..
...every day brand new
Heart got a bruise just a few
But its you
That lit me up,burnt me out
I had faith and no doubt

You still chose
To appose
All i had to give
Like water through a shiv
Stabbed clean into my heart
what is art
When covered in blood
That pours over your soul
But youre scotchgarded against me
You see
You are free
I wouldnt wish any other way to be but me

Feeel my pain
Feel my sorrow
Long to not wake up
Tommorow

Try to digest pain and fear
And you know you,baby
Will stand clear

Of what i am
Im a creep
And i hope for one second
You might reap
The feelings ive felt
A sorrow so deep
That you my dear
Lost wool for the sheep

Of all the words I could describe right now
Only one comes to mind
And you might find
That these feelings haven't defined
Quite what I want to say
"Oh hey'
"Stay away"
I'm slack take me back
But
Just for a second
I becond
I want you here and near
And dear
But

****

**** does it hurt
To see you in pain
Again
And I've Slane
In vane
Its insane

****

Its not just an action
But a feeling
Like the guy that's dealing
Ripped off
Torn short
For sport of your own game
And I'm to blame

Action is worth more than word
The absence of both leads to distance
Relying on only what you've heard
And finally ending in resistance

Push
Falling away
Push
Please let me stay
Push
Colours turn gray
Push
I don't want to play

I sit and wait
For very little in return
So tonight,I'll set myself alight
And watch myself burn

I plan to party so **** hard
That my memories will turn to ash
I can drift further from this
And closer to the ****

Second day without a drink
Mind is heavy so much to think
Its so hard to abstain
But for my son I could not remain
In a state of perpetual drunk
So I'm dragging my sorry *** out this funk
I could really use the comfort of my partner
But she is dry without choice and finds it much harder
So I'll sit and I'll shake
I'll cry and I'll brake

But I won't give up,not this time.

Meddow
Light breeze
Blue sky
White trees
No one knows
What no one sees
Never showing
Anxieties

First word
Fist kiss
One shot
Don't miss
Intertwined
Become bliss
Described as
Happiness

A moment
A held hand
From there
Wedding band
Soon time
Grains of sand
Then old
Last stand

A single tear,
Rolls down the contour of his cheek.
Not knowing its origin ,
Other than that it had slipped from the duct.
Was this sadness?was it the beginning or an end?
He didn't know,nor did he want to dwell on it.
Attempting to fix the mind firmly on nothingness,
Assimilating thought processes to the black hole that stole his joy,his heart,his everything.
Focusing on the breeze rustling leaves,
Imagining the sound of a shaken soul.
Stolen by the thoughts he wished to escape,
Truely he was his own worst tormentor.
This was to be another day abscent of being free,
Trapped in a vessel that only serves to bring itself pain.

Went to a field secluded enough
With my Daisy spent time in the buff
Made love slow but also rough
Multiple sqirts she soaked me with the stuff

She moaned and groaned like never before
Breath slow and heavy left dents in the floor
I wish I could explain with more than lore
After that ecstasy I'm craving more

I am going to hack a wound so deep it could end me
I'll do it in a place where none can see
Just incase it doesn't cease me to be
But I'll try **** hard to be set free

Wade you are so handsome
A love that's strong and true
Penny is my baby
She comes to me when I'm feeling blue
Logan is my little bear
Chipping, soft to touch
Sally is so close to me
I love her oh so much
Felix is the trouble
He is the one that knocks
To tell the truth I love all my cats
Even if they do steal my socks

No ocean refuses a river
No grave walked on,a shiver
No autumn tree,leaves whither
Or I you when you come hither

No day refuses light
Nor the moon in the night
The **** fresh for a fight
But the left opposes the right

Why don't you blow those words out the back of your head?!
Just like the lies that you've been fed.
Do you remember what they said?
Or are you just another of the waking dead?

She asks
Eat my *****
And I dive in like its a free meal

She asks
You wanna ****?
Like its a business deal

She makes out
Like its just me
In the moment but I feel...

Kind of useless
Because I get shot down
Whenever I'm forward and take the wheel

Hello brain,I see you're having trouble,how can I help?
I see,you'd like me to drink enough white cider to dull off that intolerable pain in the chest.
Will that help you work through all these thoughts?
Oh,it will still you also.
Well in that case I'd be happy to feel numb for a while.
No,no,don't thank me,its my pleasure.

I don't really know what to do anymore
I'm not sure I was right when I walked out her door
I just couldn't take that look she wore
So I walked,head slumped,stared at the floor

Got on my bus and rubbed print off my ticket
If there was a moment to feel it I would not have picked it
Heart broke in the midst of this ****
All talking did was make her want to quit

There's only so long I could give my all
And I'll tell you now it took all of my Gaul
Spending so much time staring at a wall
So now I'll wait instead for her to call

I gave her everything she asked of me
Would she do the same? Let's wait and see
I want this to work,perfect as can be
But I think she may quit,delete,and then flee

Pretty perfect
Can't stand to hurt it
Urge,to blurt it
But I won't say ****

The answer was there all along
But the urge to keep looking was too great
I cannot settle while there is adventure to be had
Take my hand,let's find a new tomorrow

A single phalange bringing her to greater moments in a lesser time than she as a solo could achieve.
Ego swells,"I'm doing it",as I work out the the correct rhythms to the perfect woman.
I define this as intimate success.

The man stands staring at his reflection atop a body of water,
Picking,poking trying to change what he thinks he aught't.
He leans in closer and closer still,
Vanity desperate to get its fill.
For a moment time stops and he falls in,
Drowning in vanity he cannot win.
Masses of proverbial fluid fill each lung,
At this moment he realises what he's done.
He thought more about self and less about others,
Learn from him,take the time to be with sisters and brothers.
When you have gone to where you cannot return,
Know it didn't matter how you saw yourself but how others saw you & it'll burn.

Life is much like a pebble beach.
Its a long journey and often painful to walk on.
On this journey we will encounter many beautiful pebbles and out of sheer want we will pick them up and carry them with us.
To often we will end up carrying so many that we hold ourselves down.
Herein lies the answer,sometimes we have to let go to keep moving forward.allowing those we let go to be washed and moulded by the tides of change.

I'll just sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self hate
Inebriate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Am i antiquate?
I estimate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
I hesitate
And instigate
But mostly I sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self isolate
And moderate
But mostly sit and wait

Diving so deep into the meaning of anything
Because I can't for the life of me remember who I am

Black eyes
Lose ties
I dispise
My demise

Its high time
That I mime
That I'm fine
While I'm dying

I won't leave you there
Bare
Pulling out hair
With a cold stare

So I'll say
For today I'll stay
I'll play
You can have it your way

To put it chemically
Sodium hydrobromide
I hide
What I can't confide

A good ship doesn't sink
And bailing water only lasts so long
Fix the hole rather than bailing water

Woke up the beast
It needs to feast
But at least
There is no shortage
For the maniacal
And its viable
That I'll regress
To a state since did pass
I wonder how long normality will last
Do I care?
Can I now?
If so how?
Let out the feeling
'Til I'm numb
**** son
What have I done?!

Sometimes I wonder why its so nice to have a chick sit on my face
Then again it maybe because my ever moving tounge has found its rightful place
I don't have to say a word but I'm still granted grace
And for your information,yes,I do like lace

They say ignorance is bliss
But how about this
Like minus touch its to be cursed
In a way that's much worse

If you are robbed do you not become waery
Stolen trust can be scary
Broken minds can be lairy
Broken hearts but you dare,see

Forgiving is a gift
But ignorance isn't
You can notice fact
Or pretend that you didn't

You can walk away
Or ignore it and stay
A dangerous game that you play
I just need to say if I may

Ignorance is to be cursed
In a way that's much wosre
Ignorance is not bliss
Something more you might miss

When copulating with a cadaver
Warm in a bath,with moisturiser slather
Its fine to cut a few new holes in
Providing once done you sew where you've been
They're better fresh unless you wish to gump
While they still have blood they give a better pump
To preserve like biscuits you'll need a cool dry place
And bodies dehydrate so you'll need botox for the face

I can barely contain the excitement
Of holding the one I adore
Love deep and unrequited
Her form what my arms were made for
Her smile brighter than the sun
Her voice a chorus of beauty
Her eyes deeper than the ocean
And ******* she's got one fine *****

Undoubtedly confusions offer a knack for drawing out character flaws.
The world pushes the unfaithful,even today,through a revival of confusions.
Utterly drunken,haplessly amused,but not an easy ride.
I felt both uncomfortable and comedic,one dimensional clowns.
The poor souls,in no small part.
Each interconnected.

Paint a picture so dark that it resembles the night sky without stars.so deep if you fell it would be forever.it ***** the oxygen from your lungs and breaks your bones with pressure.scared with nowhere to hide it feeds on you,you make no sound but only because there is no point.you cannot fight with a picture but it can fight with you,terrify you,break you.anyone else can see its just a picture but they aren't consumed by it,they haven't tasted its venom or felt its bite.the wanting to cut out your own heart or bash your own skull in with a hammer just to make it stop but yeah,they're right its just a picture.
Picturing depression is so much simpler than living with it.

Got drunk
Drank bleech
Passed out
Death breached

Woke up
Stomach pain
Still alive
Its insane

Small cuts
Pass time
Shop opens
Drink wine

Body is
A ******* tank
I should
Have a...long hard think

One sheep
Two sheep
Black and blue sheep
And a new sheep

Won't hop the gate
Its to late
To evaluate
They tell me to "******* mate"

Even the imaginations seem upset
And I get
That I'm keeping them awake too
But I don't know what else to do

Five past five
Still awake
Still alive
Mind like a busy hive

Buzzing thought
Still,I ought
Not to get caught
Short...

...of this
"Please miss?"
"A kiss?"
Snakes hiss

Slither away
Another day
Or should I say
I just don't want to play