I used to be angry
that you did what you did,
but now all I am is grateful.
You saved me the heartache.
Someone else got your attention
so you went after her.
You stopped the lies and the games and you left.
I used to be angry
because you of all the empty promises you made me.
But you just gave me a second opportunity at life,
because any life I would have had with you wouldn't have really been living.
It would have been settling.
I deserve more than to settle.
You told me to go find someone better, to find someone who will give me all that I wanted.
Don't you worry, I will.
I have no doubt I'll find someone
who is ten times the man you are.
I'll find someone who means it when they say they love me.
I'm holding out for the one who loves his Creator more than
he loves his life itself.
I'm perfectly fine with waiting for the one who can't
sleep,
breathe,
think,
live,
without me.
I'll wait for the man who
is who he says he is.
The one who doesn't have to lie
in order to get what he wants.
I'll make him feel
scared,
alive,
joyful,
excited for the future,
and happy with the life he has.
You think you ruined me?
Hahahahahaha
You showed me
what I actually deserve.
And baby, you weren't it.
So don't come back with more lies because you realize
I would have treated you like the king
I thought you were.
Don't come back for any reason.
Ever.
I'll find someone who puts me first.
Who doesn't feel the need to lie in order to conceal his true self.
Don't kid yourself, you're not worth it.
Written 11.24.15