close your eyes and think of this
a path through the meadow, box turtle's trail
to be down so low to the ground
living purely, dragging your tail
close your eyes and think of this
a retreat from this living hell
a place immune to the sights and sounds
you are safe inside your shell

how many tears have I wept
a salty river flowing toward death
into that water, I have leapt
treading until I am short of breath
lost my strength, there's nothing left
so you know, I did my best
sinking down into the depths
my body finally comes to rest

she liked the way he drank straight whiskey
he liked the way she would dance
he said "darlin, if i died would you miss me?"
she said, "I am willing to take that chance"

she said, "honey, life is just a party"
he said "baby, i love your skirt"
she jumped on the back of his harley
she said, "let's live it for all it's worth"

he was doing 90, and still had throttle
she had her arms around him, tight
he said "i'm not worried about tomorrow"
"as long as we have tonight"

(written with help from Silly)

I heard those heavy Steletto footfalls,
So clearly from down beneath.
You walked on the rocky hills,
Of my sole souls surface.

I laid it bare and fragile before you,
Spread too thin, I am such a fool.
After you no birds flew,
No view from my window.
Like the certainty around my shoulders,
the winds of Fall announce the end of summer.

Let us share in this golden shimmer,
and as winds get louder, as they will,
let God know, his justice was served:

She found him and he found her.

But we never found each-other.

My tears flow like waves thrusting in the ocean
The pain shooting through my brain is like thousands of tiny needles
Deeper and deeper down to my soul
My body trembles and shakes uncontrollably
Every muscle in my body screams for relief
But none comes…

I push the button next to my bed
I feel the morphine swirling through my veins
Waiting for relief
But none comes

My days are numbered
Just relieve me of this torture
Please make it end
Pull the plug

I still see your face
With that grin so brash
Taunting me
Teasing me
Torturing me
Then gone in a flash

You don’t show your true colors
You hide them so well
Hidden behind that sweet smile
Those kind words you sing come straight from hell

Peel back your mask
Reveal your true self
The devil appears
Hiding on the shelf

You’re incapable of love
Your anger is fierce
Perverted thoughts
You try to hide
But you can’t help yourself
You enjoy the ride

The charade is over
You come exploding through
You can’t fool me anymore
I can see right through you

When did I become so unhappy?
When did I want to die?
When did I wake up every morning?
Trying hard not to cry

When did you leave me?
Why didn’t you stay
Why can’t I live without you
Not even a day

It’s been over a year
You’ve moved on, I have not
What do I do now?
I don’t have a shot

You are with another
She’s queen of the year
With a ring on her finger
It’s too hard to bear

I lie in my bed
It hurts to get up
I’ll sit here and drink
The poison from my cup

I cannot forget you
How much I do try
I’m done with this life
No more tears to dry

i wanna drink up your love
and swallow it twice
for you i'll be naughty,
**** being nice

push me against a wall
bite my neck and my ear
tell me i'm a bad girl
and let the neighbors hear

let me make you feel
let me make you moan
let me taste your skin
let me not be alone