If somebody asked me
what arsenic was,
I'd just turn around
and point at you.

I'm too drunk to write poetry
And I'm lost in my thoughts
and the noise
that are surrounding me

Alcohol is flowing
Everyone is having a good time
Me, included
But I still think of you
No matter how drunk I get
Even more so, I'd say

I'm staring into your eyes,
And I think out of all the guys,
You chose me.
And I'm staring at you while you sleep,
Sounding like some sort of creep,
But it's surreal.
This is dreamlike.
I feel like time goes a little slower with you,
I feel like life will never be over with you,
I ******* love what I feel when I see you.
I live for the emotion you make me feel,
I live for the oxytocin my brain starts to spill,
The chemical love drug in my head.
It makes me think of you late at night lyin' in bed.
It's times without you I'm starting to dread.
More and more.
Because I think I love you,
I'm all for you.
But I'm trying to work some things out in life.
And I'm certainly not trying to introduce you to the strife,
That makes up my everyday routine.
Girl you make me dream.
But in the grand scheme,
Will it really matter?
Because these words we trade may flatter,
But in the end what comes after?
Some departing words and some broken hearts?
I don't know if I can stand to go through that again.
I don't know if I can stand to go through it again.
I can't go to sleep runnin' this through my head.
I love you,
You make me toss and turn in my bed.
You make me have beautiful dreams in my bed.
You make me wish we could lay awake in my bed.
I think I love you...

the pain isn’t in my wrist from where the blades would twist but its in my heart where the giant sits. what would rip as your eyes  would drip and drip. feels like a million tuns of bricks. my voice was quiet like the sign you read my voice will not drop like it said. my voice will rise. i will not stand idly by watching as my time goes bye. the clock ticks by as i lay here waiting to die. i stopped my self that night from telling myself these ******* lies. i don’t want to die tonight i will stand up and take to the fight. fight for what i know is right. fight for the ones i wish to sleep soundly at night. i will not die without any light i will fight

every time i see you
i wonder what it would be like
to be with you
and when i think of being with you
i wonder what it would be like
if you stayed

i like pop music
some oldies too
i dont like Mudhoney
but you do

I like rivers
I like the ground
you get thrills
im safe and sound

I like Disney
I like Pixar
You like pulp fiction
its just who we are

im not obscure
ive tried to be
its not who i am
its not who ill be

this isnt an attack
just recognition
of who i am
of what im missing

im trying to fit in
but thats not what im about
i dont get along
with the out crowd

i dont get cult movies
or grungy rock bands
it doesnt make me
less than i am

i like classic poets
but moderns good too
but i dont get those poets
you watch on youtube

maybe i thought
i could learn or understand
but im beginning to see
thats just not who i am

this is a message
or maybe just a thought
i had to say it
im all i got

ill still try to watch your movies
ill listen to your bands
ill try to get it
ill try to understand

i dont always get you
but boy do i try
i guess im just tired
of trying to lie

I hear your voice every time
I hear the song approaching the top of my playlist
And you know, there's a reason I always skip it
I can't bear hearing your voice
Even when I know you're not really there
And the words whispered into my ear
Were never yours in the first place
The song makes my heart beat faster
So much that I just
Want
It
To
End
So I could live in a world without music for once
Without that white noise in the background of my memory
Reminding me of you
Like your life is on replay
A remix intertwined with mine
Four bars of bittersweet harmony take me back
To a time when I knew who I was
I was your girlfriend
Sweet and naive
Turned into a monster I never wanted to be
And that is the reason
I can't bear to hear those four bars
Not for you or for me
For both of us
I stay away

Don't you dare fall in love with me
I'll hurt you.
For selfish reasons
I'm a wolf clothed in sheepskin

Don't let me get underneath yours

I come not from a broken past
But something's happened within
A heart that avoids everything

I'll lure you in

You'll be my taste test
Chewed on and spat out
Discarded cud on the mud

Don't you dare fall in love with me
Cause I'm not broken
And can never be fixed
I'm a rose with thorned stems
Hold me and you'll bleed
Let me go...

Let me go
It's better for us.
If that's so

when i look at you i think of all the times you've given me.
you used to be my idol, and not only that
but my best friend
and my twin.
we shared everything from music to pain
and sharing that pain made everything okay.
but then you found another crowd
and suddenly i fell from the highest cloud
to hit the ground.
bitter and hard and cold
and you off with others that were cooler than me.
and with the cool came a chill that froze me.
where were you then?
why did you turn your back?
what made you leave?
there were no more secrets or midnight snacks or sharing pain together (forever, as forever was implied)
i was left to bear it alone.
call me an idiot for picking you up again when the new friends decided they were done with you
but maybe i felt sorry
because, well- now you know what i felt.
and as much as i hate myself for loving you, no one should feel what you made me feel.
not even your worst enemy.
not even your best friend.

Would you tell me that I'm beautiful
If I took off all my clothes?
Would that make you feel loved?
Because it makes me feel sick.
My body is beautiful-
But it's not beautiful for you.
It's beautiful for me.

Throw away the plastic and paper covers with bold photos and bright letters telling you that you
Can always be better.
When did stick thin become more beautiful than curvy?
And when did the human mind become so greedy-
So needy-
That we'd rather see it all than leave
some things to the imagination.
The world wants you to stop believing.
Stop believing that your eyes can sparkle
And your laugh is more than white noise.
They all want to chew you up and spit you out-
A plastic punishment of which a diamond is undeserving.
Keep some of the edges. They keep you unique.
Keep your imperfections, because they are beautiful to me.
Stop trying to see yourself through
the lens of a camera
the reflection of a makeup mirror
the print of a photograph.
You are in the first rays of sunlight that kiss the sky.
Your touch is mysterious and beautiful.
You are mysterious and beautiful.