It's not easy to face ourselves
To look within so deeply to see and feel the wounds and be with them for healing
It hurts a lot
Though I'll feel the pain to lessen the grip to lessen its tormented gain
To understand and see it's not all of me
Being compassionate for self this radiates out as you learn more hidden depths and compassion for another
For why we do as we do
How we live as we live
How we can take and how we can give
The understanding grows...
...Deep

Cave wall shadows dancing
Thunder from on high
Enlightenment unattainable
That’s just another lie
....

want to fight you with all I got
but here in the desert I am dust

dust got no fight, no will
here I lie, in wait

dust always wins

Time is but a nagging measurement
Kinetic forces, inertia unleashed
Every birthday now forth
One year closer to entropy

Deformity of my spirituality
Preserve my heart in wine
The calamity of my existence
Chaotically divine

My charity dreary
My energy empathy drains
As I share your agony
To ease your suffering

I seek refuge
Alone in the wilderness
Drawing faces on the moon
Deities behind the clouds
Here wayward creature
Are solemnly set a fowl
.....

Learning and evolving
Primitively revolting
Problematic solutions
Ideological institutions

Mergence of shadow
Disassociation of ego
***, ecology, spirituality
Check, check, check

Why am I still broken?