if everybody was like me
then either way
you won't see me today
cause how do you talk
when you don't even take a walk

if everybody was like me

some people will **** themselves
before they could have dreamed
some will try their best
but never succeed
some would only be arrogant
don't mind about others
some freak themselves out
cause some will shout
when you're acting too proud
some will act too strange
when you look them in the face
some only see kindness
in a world that tries to hide
some will fight
but only with themselves
but lucky for them
some will encourage
when you feel like you're not found

little did I know
some try to pretend
some are done
some fight till the end
while some just
seek for a friend

if everybody was like me.

now.
tell me.
if you look at this closely...
Do you see?
I guess
everybody is
already like me
the real question is
which version of me
do you want to be

I don't know
but I need to know soon
just for my own
cause moon
is coming

I will be reset
when a new day breaks
new scenarios were made
for me to explore
where I still deem
nobody is what they seem

24 hours
to think

looking at others
didn’t know it bothered

cause when they start to talk
saying things like 'I wish he’d call'

it hurts
I know I can't say that
cause they are just living their life
happy they look
blooming inside

nothing can destroy that
at least that’s how they feel

I should mind my own business
but-
Should I warn them?
cause it's going to be worse
but for some reason they don’t see the curse

give it time
and everything crashes down
just like…
always

vacation

only 4 days
then I get some rest
living in the past
but still dreaming of the best

only 4 days
then I will imagine
who I could be
flying on a dragon

only 4 days
then I can scream
but I'm not my own team
cause demons don't want to be seen
and mine want to be so mean
trying to hide them from the stream

only 4 days
and I don't want to lose
don’t want to bruise

they say freedom is to be as free as a bird

independent and strong
not in a cage

they give me 'freedom'
but not how I say

they push me till I am right at the edge
say I need to jump
but I’m not ready to fledge

I know that’s how it works
I’ve seen it multiple times
you jump and you fly
                yeah I do believe that lie

but we are missing one point
my wings aren’t fully grown
now I’m standing on my own
cause I need to do it all alone

so I turn my back and ask

if they could do it one more time
cause I know they can

now I am

just standing on the ground
looking at the birds in the sky
admiring them knowing someday I will try

as a kid we can't wait to grow up
we want to explore the world
cause nobody wants to explain with words

afraid to crash you down

so I got to be strong
cause I can't wait this long
I figured it out myself
and found the darkest place
and now need space
cause I’m falling in this phase people call it "youth"

Almost there

now I’m past halfway
3 years holding me back
and every day feels like a trap