You lose a job
the lover you tied your life with drifts elsewhere
the place you grew root seems not home anymore
the days are vacuous and nights a crawler
your head echoes with the deafening groan

I deserve no love, even from me.

Surely it’s the worst portrait you drew of yourself
and an erroneous one.

The job was filling your purse but emptying your purpose
the lover was no fairy but a fair weather friend
the home was only a harbor you anchored before sail.

There’s a world at your doorstep begging your attention
withering without your love.

Pick up and hold them to your breast
see how quickly unburdens your chest
your spirits soar.

From thence you would never cease
to love yourself from the core!

I always find a positive side in every situation

Even though it is already killing me

My brain’s too strong but my heart is already tearing apart

My rational mind says “go and fight” but my emotional heart says “I’m too tired”

Tired of disappointing myself and people around me

Tired of all the stress and pressure that life is giving me

I may cry a thousand tears but I know God’s love will wipe them out

I don’t want to give up for I know He has a better plans for me

Never will I raise that white flag

I will fight

I must

Touch me.
I won't shatter,
I won't explode.

Run your fingers through my hair.
I'm not brittle,
I won't break.

Hold me close,
Ignore the tears,
Just hold me.

It's been so long,
Since I've been touched.
So long since I've been loved.
Touch me,
Hold me,
Run your fingers through my hair.

I won't shatter,
I'm not brittle,
Just hold me.

My goal is not to become a star
is to become a **winning star.