Coco Li

Coco Li Jul 2014

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The "have"
now I had.

#life

Jul 2014

Anonymus

God

Father, are you there?
Are you listening?
Do you care?

I need you.
I want to laugh and talk
Like we used to.

Father, return my faith.
I need to believe
In You again some day.

Why are my dreams failing
They aren't supposed to
When are they happening?

Father, do you love me?
What is wrong,
Why would you let this be?

Please don't judge me for this poem. A lot of things have been going on and not going right, so I hope you understand. My dreams are yet to come true; and I'm afraid that they will never.

#sad #life #god #father #hope #faith #dreams #believe

Coco Li Jul 2014

Untitled

Tolerated
but
not
accepted.

#life

Coco Li Jul 2014

Untitled

My skin lies a force field
it's a momentum by forever
it was,
when I run freely in those fields
it became one of my happiest escape
the only fantasy I made.

A spontaneous laugh for the stars
a tiger stare for the moon
it was,
til I swam freely in the ocean
diving but no life.

it was,
the memory of a lost soul.

Coco Li Jun 2014

Stay Sane

I want you to stay sane
even for a week
maybe a month
hoping it could last for a year
and so it can be forever.

I need you here.

stay sane.

It wasn't easy for me. I've been battling anxiety for years, it was since my highschool days. It's like diving deeply underneath the ocean floor, unprepared for what's coming, full of darkness. I realize that I need to help myself. I've been doing a lot of works lately. As much as possible I talk to many people, even strangers. I just wanted to let it out. I wanted to stay sane.

#depression #life #anxiety

Coco Li Jun 2014

Silence

I'm not afraid to these stories ,
roaming around our town
or how you coped with nightmares.
I'm scared on the silence of night
the absence of the absent
the feeling of longing
the feeling of striving
the effort of 'you have to'.

It's even when you wake up
knowing that sunlit wasn't enough.

#life #alone #breathe