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dying red rose petals
darkened at their tips,
become crushed between
my pointed white teeth.
their acrid floral blood
drips from my tongue,
and i wonder once more
what my purpose is here;
why am i still fighting
for a life i don't want to
live anymore?
i ate a rose. it tasted like heartbreak.
i cannot feel my skin
im not somewhere else
but im not here either
im missing
how long have i been
letting myself drown
in good intentions
**** people really **** huh
i wish i was a soft girl
the ones you find in movies
with tears of honey
and kindness that warms like golden sunshine
dewdrop flowers with ambrosial petals
blooming with unwavering patience and soft lips

instead i am just a girl
with a chest of steel
and i am angry
that i foolishly keep waiting
for someone to lift the curtain
and maybe see me
as a soft girl too
i can see it now
you'll pick me up at the corner
just like you used to
and we'll drive down the coast
heading nowhere with no cares
and the salty pacific wind
will weave through our hair
and make you laugh the way you do
from the bottom of your chest to my smile
you'll play me songs you found
and stowed away for this moment
like tiny treasure boxes of gold
with "i love you" inscribed on the side

this is what i dream about
this is what gives me peace

i never thought i would miss it so much.
One of my closest friends used to drive me home after school almost every day, and we would always share new music we had with each other on these car rides. It was one of the only times we got to escape from life and just listen. Thinking about the day we can do that again is something that keeps me going. I hope you all find the thing that keeps you going as well :)
I want so badly to be me enough
That it doesn't matter how crazy I am.
as my necklace hangs on my neck
i think back to memories i’ll never forget.
even during the best & the worst,
the chain on my heart will not fall apart.
it sits here with me every day,
doing more than i could ever repay.
no one can imagine what such thing does
it keeps me safe, & feeling loved.

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