sometimes,
late at night,
i worry

i worry
about little
(or, perhaps, big)
things
like if he suddenly
wakes up
one day
and realizes  
that i'm not good enough for him

that he could do so much better than just me
and that this
us
shouldn't be happening.

most of all,
i worry
that he will fall
in love with
someone new.

(someone,
who is not
me.)

the worst feeling
      is missing someone
        and not knowing if
          you've even crossed
their mind

the words
goodbye
mean so much
good·bye
go͝odˈbī/
exclamation
used to express good wishes when parting
this term
carries so much on
its shoulders.
"see you later"
implies the fact
that two people will meet
again soon.
"goodnight"
means that
two people will be
seeing each other again
the next day.
but goodbye
means forever
it means you have not
the slightest intention
of ever seeing
someone again
it means going away
and never coming back

words.
they're a funny thing.
they can mean
thousands of different things,
each word
a metaphor
for something that is
subtle and unheard of.
but his words--
they are more than just metaphors.