every word you write is not for me and never will be
unfortunately
i'm not stupid

i drank 12 beers yesterday and still remembered your street name
- no one can love me how i love them
- the last meal i ate was three days ago, it was soup
- i woke up with your name on my lips
- 23 years have gone by and I still won't clean my room
- crying in front of you is my worst nightmare
- ******* is keeping me from destroying everything
- "you look like a poem when you cry"
- i think about having *** with you when i'm at work
- red wine puts things into perspective
- i'm sorry but i don't believe a ******* word you say
- music is a form of escapism
- i apologize way too much for my own good

She looked at her blades,
Than looked at her wrist...
She missed that feeling,
But her scars were healing.
She wanted to stay strong,
But i's  been so long...
She put the blade on her wrist,
And than made her hands into a fists...
She dropped the blade,
And began to cry..
She couldn't believe how long it's been,
Since she felt those blades cutting her self.....
She should be so proud,
But voices in her head got so loud...
She sat there in pain,
Because she knew she was  going insane!!!

i'm sorry that i'm not good enough
i'm sorry that you don't think of me first thing when you wake up
i'm sorry that i wasted your time
i'm sorry that i embarrass myself for loving you
i'm sorry for thinking that my poetry is any good, it's not.
i'm sorry for spending so much money traveling
i'm sorry for thinking that you loved me
i'm sorry for scaring you
i'm sorry for drinking all your tea
i'm sorry that you look away when we have ***
i'm sorry for pulling your hair.
i'm sorry that i get jealous of your blatant apathy
i'm sorry that i cry when i come to terms that i'm not your #1
i'm sorry for rambling on about how much i care for you
i'm sorry for dreaming about you
i'm sorry that you don't think i'm worth it
i'm sorry that you ignore me
i'm sorry for trying too hard to make you care
i'm sorry for smiling like an idiot when i wake up to texts from you
i'm sorry for ranting and raving about how wonderful i thought you were
i'm sorry for giving you a second, third, fourth, fifth thought
i'm sorry that my head is littered with you
i'm sorry that you can drive all the way up for someone else and not me
i'm sorry that i cried in front of you
i'm sorry that i showed any kind of emotion to you
i'm sorry for saying 'sorry' too much
i'm sorry that we've spent hours talking and I still know nothing
i'm sorry that i sleep too much and miss you
i'm sorry that i want you at 4 am when I can't sleep
i'm sorry that i think about ******* you when i'm at work
i'm sorry for sweating on your sheets
i'm sorry for taking up too much space
i'm sorry for thinking you were forever
i'm sorry for using you as inspiration
i'm sorry for spending too much time waiting
i'm sorry for impatient train rides
i'm sorry for not smiling enough
i'm sorry for asking too many questions
i'm sorry for the blow jobs
i'm sorry for moving around too much when i sleep
i'm sorry for having too much to say
i'm sorry for not having anything to say during dinner
i'm sorry for not eating enough
i'm sorry for wasting money on things that make us distant
i'm sorry for even thinking we are close to begin with
i'm sorry that i hate seeing you with another women
i'm sorry that i love seeing you with another man
i'm sorry for my rational jealousy
i'm sorry that we both **** 18 year olds
i'm sorry that we are growing
i'm sorry for losing everything
i'm sorry for drinking too much and smoking too much
i'm sorry for my hypocritical views on human interaction
i'm sorry that i have no idea what to call myself
i'm sorry that i lie to myself about how you really feel about me
i'm sorry that you don't see me as a work of art, the way i see you
i'm sorry that my kisses are starting to bore you
i'm sorry that you are obsessed with carbon copies
i'm sorry that you can't build a bridge
i'm sorry that i still think of him when i touch myself
i'm sorry that i hurt myself
i'm sorry that i need to be alone
i'm sorry that you being unresponsive makes me feel worthless
i'm sorry that i care so ******* much
i'm sorry that i want you
i'm sorry this happened.

I wonder if my skeletons in the closet miss me.
I used to keep them company all the time.
I hope they're still playing nice.

They wouldn't make for the most comfortable of cuddles,
but at least we had a lot in common.
We could talk all night until the sun rose,
and it wouldn't even matter as long as we had the door shut.
We'd talk until I was deliriously hallucinating faces on their skulls.
We'd talk until I'd melt into their rib cages.
My pupils were as wide as eye sockets,
and I could see myself in their skin.
They'd smile at me, warmly,
and make me feel at home.

I wasn't afraid of the dark,
I was afraid of the light.

I'm in Love with the World,
Don't Take it personally.
It's not yours to Have,
But it's ours to Feel.
We are the World,
and I'm in Love.

my love for you is as innocent as possible
i require no notes, long walks, or sweaty palms
i want nothing more than your lips on my lips
fingertips delicately grazing bones
and eye contact filled with unspoken admiration

my love for you as is simple as the alphabet
easy, and second-nature
no second thoughts
no clinging to vowels or consonants
just a swift fluid flash of jumbled letters
lining up like hieroglyphics
that express my undulating desire
to be as close to you as we are now

my love for you is mental vacation
from the lingering vice that i thought "love" was
because i've never felt more free
from you
with you
just us
even just for a moment, a day
i am full and complete
i require nothing more or less than just your company
and eyelashes on my cheek

my love
i've run out of things to say
my love, my love, my love
like a pop song
you are orange and yellow music and driving bass
percussive and uplifting
you will be stuck in my head for a while.