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 Jun 2016 Brandon Morris
PrttyBrd
Tell me
Whisper in my ear
The love in your heart
Show me
Open affection
In the face of all
Love me
Out loud
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I hate the way I am. How I over think everything until I mentally believe that the people around me don't care for me at all. One little thing sets me off and it becomes more than it seems, where I have to be reminded about the good things. How the thoughts I have make me afraid of myself so I sit alone thinking of ways to destroy the thought itself. I'm afraid that I might hurt others in the near future because of the anger inside me, I worry I'll hurt my husband and kids when I have them, I'm worried I'll hurt my family and friends when they're the last thing I want to damage. There are days when I become angry and I hear the monster inside me scream and curse and destroy everything in it's path there are days when she comes out and she's hideous. I hear my conscious speaking of things I don't want to hear, the voices become louder and it distracts me from my daily life and I drown them out by sleeping so I can wake up to them again, I've heard these voices since childhood and they've become a nuisance and the worse part is that sometimes what they say is true. If you ask most people what they are afraid of they would answer something like death, snakes or spiders. But if you ask me I would tell you that I fear myself more than anything.
Troublesome love . . .

will not let you sleep . . .

Sort of like a basketball game . . .

Questions are bounced mad and furiously
against the hard wood floor with only
more questions bouncing back .

Meanwhile someone is trying to steal
your dreams causing you to twist and turn distorting your image .

And you fight your way down
the court of life and toss your hopes and
dreams into the air and pray to God . . .
go in.
My world is not of the written word
It cannot be numbered
held captive on a so called page

My world is liquid
as sea , rain , snow or ice
It can be hot , cold , or entice

My world is cloudy
It thunders after it flashes light
My world is wrong , my world is right

There are no words that bind my life
I won't be delegated
to exist in the black on white

I will not be staved
by the limited sways
of the written words upon the page
 Jun 2016 Brandon Morris
Stephan
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In a cavern long about the edge of time
dwells a sadness deep upon my heart,
where fragments of my imagination
cry out from a desolate vault,
iron clad and riveted
of a stone mason’s might
Welded shut, encrusted with fear
and loneliness in unsealed envelopes
addressed to someone other than me

Where neighbors retrieve and process,
regardless of names and stamped signatures,
unwilling to pay the postage now due
of an encased memory shoveled
away to linger on each crow’s feather
that falls from the reaches far above my head,
dropping square tears from round eyes,
mapping my cheeks
in solitary traces of vertical weeping

Self imposed some may say,
and they could be correct, though
when it comes to forgotten, that heart of gold,
worth more than its weight in life,
pays more attention to the fate of others
than collecting breaths of this or any
next door, across the fence wisdom
For if they hurt, those who shouldn’t,
then what is the use

With heavy stone in hand I tap,
loudly on the reinforced tarnished structure
in a series of dots and dashes,
rhythmic chaos to some,
but patterned to the beat of my heart
saying, you are loved, you are cherished,
you are needed and most importantly,
you are not alone, hoping the chanting echoes
land upon listening ears,
and you can smile once more
and I can feel it
 Jun 2016 Brandon Morris
Laurent
A Lighthouse to light beyond the Reasons
An Astragal to tone down the Passion
A Lantern to bright beyond the Horizons
In that permanent Love's Peregrination
Some wished him to be an Anchor
He is just a moored Beacon, offshore.
Wondering aloud and redolent for that 'lone shade tree' occupying -
a knee high grassy field , armed with a good book , Sassafras tea and countless piedmont recollections* ....
Copyright June 27 , 2016 by Randolph L Wilson * All Rights Reserved
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