the thought of you dosnt always feel like my chest is breaking open
just like the morning after a night of vices
I smoke a cigarette and say im better than I was yesterday
and you're still a sepulcher of all things Ive learned to hate in a human

my jaw is clenched
my teeth gritted
she thinks I'm a *******
but she loves the ***
her body is there when I'm hungry
her moans are louder than demons
her heart isn't in it
neither am I
it's back to nodding after this
it feels like a pinch
needles are nicer than you

you're a shark and I'm swimming
your kisses make me peak
I'll paint your world red

I could paint your skin with my teeth
a pale goddess on the sheets
splashes of deep violet at the surface of your marble skin
i tag you with impressions of desire
intimate places where I've been
it's not a watercolor
I don't trace you with horse hair
I don't scrape your skin with charcoal
I wont mold you in my hands like Clay
but I'll feel your blood on my lips
hands on your hips...

keeping myself in handcuffs
digesting powders off the coffee table for intentions of acension
there's new lenses covering my eyes now
it's not bright in my prison she knows I'm just high now
I shouldn't have to question my existence
mother raised me a prophet
I'm disobeying my doctor
ive been stripping peoples affection from my life
you're supposed to get me high why the **** do I want to die now?
my soul is dripping down the drain, my bones are building their own coffins
I'll keep chasing rabbits, whole face in the faucet

Éffleurer I can't handle
I want to be burned by your sun
I want to decompose your chemicals
Tu es ma joie de vivre.

you make me completely conscious that I'm a human being
that I am on an anachronistic rock going faster than I could imagine around a gaping sphere of fire in a pit of undiscovered universe

I kept my heart in a safe
I didn't allow myself to fall in love
so why now do I want you to excavate my mind, shake my body, and rock my soul

you prance in slowly cause you know my room
you moan for me softly
you shake my tomb

you invite me to feel the permeation of the air thats
electrically stagnant between us

the only time I will ever hurt the baby is when her hair is in my grip and she's being smothered by pillows and my affection

to cover your insides in chrome
to paw and kneed to bed onto your heart
to bite you with ambitions I have for you
and pull your hair cause your better than that
I can burn your skin with kisses so your character shows through
and slam you on your bed because you can shake my soul

there are moments of collapse
bridges, space, and time between us
plenty of its black
it's alright you'll get your breath back in a second
your mother's gone, your father makes it home
your stomach shakes, keep down
there's not but one room in the house
your problems started here and this is where it ends

any pain in my body is so much more bearable when it comes from you

you're spoiled with knowledge
the god of any reality you choose
**** with deaths emotions and he'll leave you alone

there's going to be a day you're going to be laying in bed and I'm going to make your nails dig into the sheets, your toes curl, and so much excitement rush through your  body and you're going know how much I love you

just breathe

you look so beautiful from up here, where you crucified me

seeing you makes me believe angels exist
and if they do, I hope they can watch after you

i havnt had enough
i havnt held you in
i hope hell holds me mostly accountable
for making you turn your back on him

you're soaking wet youre soaked in red when I cut right through you