sea-scape, fires of
forgotten ghosts,
black edge,
dancing bird,
remote sky,
leafy earth,
song of love.

the night’s unfamiliar
shiver of last leaves
from trees silent
as frost.
the world is gold
and bronze.
the shadows melt,
flame, bend, unwind
discover still currents
of dark earth
where the sleepy
stream murmurs
that the moon
is a ghost of
water,
that her midnight
streams are
the strangest of
strangest
songs.

My summer smells like deadlines,
for lifelines **** themselves
sometime near spring,
with the serrated rust
of misconstrued martyrdom,
they wither fall
into a ghost who lingers
flaking slow
among the fallen ribbons,
former clothes
torn and thrown away
for the sheets of winter

In the yellow,
cold light
of the wine-dark
night _
between the new mall
and the Roman Site _
he staggered
alone,
drunken
with "Magon"*
and memories.

Vast,
so vast is the night _
vast
as the memory
of an English
prairie,
and an emmer-haired
maiden
he had walked
to the ferry
on a summery day.

Vast,
so vast
is a night
masquerading
as a want of sight.


© LazharBouazzi

this hurt, this pain-
it hasn't gotten any better.
I'm hoping and praying it doesn't last
forever.
feels like I've gotten left out in bad weather
breaking benjamin-
"birds of a feather"

I can't see
can't breathe
help me
please...

I need
someone
anything
stop this agony...

out of time
I've lost my
will
to survive
I've learned to thrive

and I
can't take another
surprise
I gotta open my eyes
be more wise...

but I can't see
can't see
can't breathe
somebody help me
help me
save me
or I'll be
forever alone
on my own

well, I'd rather be
me
myself, and I
but why
do I feel
a need
for
something I can't have
I'm trying to open a locked door
no key

but I'm not talking of ken only...

deep down, I know
the hurt has yet to go
I know
I still care for jordain
so...

what'll I do now?
how
do
I
breathe?

he's
no longer by my side.
how will I sleep?
I got insomnia late at night

because I'm up cause of
the dreams
they **** me
inside
no where
to
hide
and I

can't see
can't see
can't
breathe
help me
save me
or I'll be
forever
alone.
on my own.

I refuse to be taken back
To the times where I
Was unhappy
Looking and thinking
Why did I let this
Go on for so long?

Why couldn't I escape?
You had an hold on me
A strong one
I'm finally
Free

From the emotional abuse
You want me..
I can't move backwards
I don't want that life

Moving forward with
This new chapter
Hoping it will last
You can't control me
ANYMORE!