I felt your sharp tongue slice through my neck
I felt your words hit the back of my head
I felt my blood pour onto the floor
I felt my heart stop when you said we're no more

I always ***** up
That's the problem with me
I think I'm sailing high
But I end up lower than the sea
I'm the member that tries
Who's family avoids to mention
I'm the member that lies
So between family there's less tension
I don't see my purpose
All I do is fall
I don't see anything
Except the disappointment in the faces of them all

With the faces people make
They so often give away
What is deep inside their hearts
Faces showing who they are

You can read them like a book
With the way their faces look
Most often times it fits the crime
To what is churning in their minds

Face it, this is what we have
I'll face you, you face me back
With all of that being said
We'll one day face the consequence

Out of everything we ever had
All I ever saved
Is the only lonely fact
That I am so afraid

All the lasting memories
That we made to this day
When it comes to love
I'm afraid I threw it all away

Not satisfied with the bird in hand
I'd rather let it fly
Than for this man to make a stand
With no easy reason why

Always lacking courage
In what I need to say
Is it any wonder
That I am so afraid

When push comes to shove
Is it done out of love
Is it done with a purpose
Is it ever done enough

Before it is this gets too late
Let me one more time explain
When it comes to love
I'm afraid I threw it all away

i am the door...
that you leave slightly ajar
in your comings and goings
in an effort to find out who you are

i am the wall...
feel free to stare at me blankly
or if you have greater need
you're more than welcome to climb me

i am the table...
for you to lay it all out
or if you prefer to wine and dine
in this riddle of doubt

i am the drawer...
you hold all your secrets in
your poetry and diary
of who you now are and who you have been

i am the bed...
your afraid to peek underneath
but still with enough comfort
to give you your much needed sleep

i am the window...
that opens into your soul
telling you what you want
and what you don't want to know

i am the floor...
where it all gets swept
into that lonely corner
with the rest of your mess

I stay awake all night long.
You always wake up next to me
And ask me why there's something wrong

I'm the ocean. Large and deep.
Beautiful from the shore.
A collection of all the tears I weep

The powerful waves that everyone sees
You can't name all the creatures
Or my great insecurities

But you can come to observe me.
Be entertained by me.
We both know you'll never completely understand me

I am an ocean.  Large and deep.
You don't know me at all
So go back to sleep