I'm sorry
I take for granted that you will understand
That you will feel what I feel
How I'm feeling so sad and disappointed inside

I'm sorry
I forgot that you are not an adult
That you are still a tiny little boy
How I should not burden your small shoulders with my worries

I'm sorry
I must remind myself that I'm the parent
That you are merely a child, my child
How I should be the one looking after all

I'm sorry sugarbum
I really am

You used to make me feel giddy
Anticipating for our next rendezvous
You used to make me able
To fly around without visible wings

You used to make me see
Things which were not real
You used to make me fight
For justice which was not even fair

You used to make me angry
When you disappeared out of thin air
You used to make me cry
Endless tears while mending my owh so broken heart

You now make me feel proud
Of picking up the shattered pieces you left behind
You now make me feel great
For being the only one wearing the parent cap

You now make me feel nothing
Because really I am the one who I should thank
You now make me feel zero
Because that's what you are, nil, nada, no more

Tell me right now
What do you want from me?

Tell me right now
Why do you always hurt me?

Tell me right now
How do you heal the intense pain you brought me?

Tell me right now
Where do you think this will bring me?

Tell me right now
Who will help and support me?

Tell me right now
When will you ever really love me?

See with glittering eyes
That's what Roald said

She was a great woman
A superwoman
She fought cancer
And won the first round

Alas, cancer found her again
She was defeated this time
She was a great woman
My superwoman

I hate you
But I love you

I love you
But I hate you

Back then
Life was easier

Back then
Life was happier

Back then
Life was calm

Back then
Life was at ease

Now
Life is challenging

Now
Life is a mixture of feelings

Now
Life is happening

Now
Life is sometimes at un-ease