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Jul 2019 · 214
My longing
Abby Jul 2019
Is it so wrong I long to be loved?
To hear well done?
To be thought about?
To be held?
To hear how much I mean to someone?
It's what I search for in my darkest hours alone with no one to show me what love is
Jun 2019 · 182
Searching
Abby Jun 2019
As each pair of eyes she stared into
Lips she kissed
Hand she held
She still felt empty
None of them were good enough
Maybe for a time but she knew something was missing
Something wasn't right
After countless of guys and dates
She finally realized
They will never be him
Jun 2019 · 155
The story of him
Abby Jun 2019
The thought of you still keeps me up at night
The memories of the way I felt alive when I was with you still rips my heart apart
Your voice echos in my mind in the stillness of night
Your laugh is forever on reply in my mind
I 'll never forget how you made something so simple mean the world to me
How when I was with you I felt like no one else was around
How my face felt from not being able to stop smiling
How holding your hand felt like it was truly made for mine
But most of all I'll never remember how you made me feel like you actually love me
I believed it in the fastest and slightest way and I fell  
hard
Head first
Thoughts started to fill my head
I had doubts about you but you clouded my head with your sweet words
Your touch
Your kiss
And I fell for it
Now when it was time to pick me up you left
I never felt a pain so real and raw until you
You turned your back on me
You'll never know what it felt like the day you left me
How my fists pounded my steering wheel from all the rage built inside of me
How echos of screams filled my car
How the warmth of tears never stopped and my vision was blurred
You'll never know the pain I felt that night driving in my car
And still in my heart I hope you never do
because even after all the pain you caused me all I ever want for you is to find true happiness
I don't want the pain I felt that night from you to come from someone else and haunt you like it did me
Jun 2019 · 298
Hope...
Abby Jun 2019
Hope
That's what I hold onto
Hoping you'll come back
Hoping you'll miss me the way I miss you
Hoping your heart is breaking the same way mine does every night
Hoping you still think of me the way I think of you everyday
Hope is all I hold onto for you and me
But somewhere deep down I know hope won't bring you back
Jun 2019 · 179
Untitled
Abby Jun 2019
I know the person you are
And I know the person you can be
I fell in love with the person you could be not the person you are
But I hope everyday you will become the person you can be because that person made me believe, hope dream and love
Jun 2019 · 308
The dream of you
Abby Jun 2019
As I close my eyes memories of you flood my mind
My laughter sounds from when you used to make me laugh
My smile grinning while I smiled while I lay with you thinking I wish I could make time stop here in this moment forever
Holding your hand and wishing I never had to let it go
But then the sun came up and I woke up and it was all a dream
Jun 2019 · 372
This is me
Abby Jun 2019
Sitting here in the dark with streams of tears flowing down
Here I am
My real self
The person who I really am
Not the person I only pretend to be in the light of day
In the dark
I feel safe
I feel open
I feel broken
I feel like me
It's hard to pretend to be someone your not
Jun 2019 · 175
My mistake
Abby Jun 2019
Everything has been falling,
Falling apart
Since I left you
Now I'm trying to crawl back to you
Jun 2019 · 201
Leaving
Abby Jun 2019
Leaving
It sounded all to familiar to her
No matter who left it never got easier
The dead silence with the only sound of her beating
The damp tears beating down
The shatter of her heart breaking by the footsteps of another leaving once again
She felt it way to many times
Jun 2019 · 246
It will always be you
Abby Jun 2019
Hours
Hours have gone by
Days
Days have gone by
A year
A full year has gone by
Since meeting you
Since touching you
Kissing you
Falling for you
I remember it like it was yesterday
Your memories haunt me everyday
I think about you like your still apart of me
Making me wish I could relive just that one day
Will I ever learn to forget you? Or will you always be apart of me?
You consume me
A touch
Makes me remember is how you held me
A kiss
How yours is still the only one that will staisfy me
I meet strangers to forget you
But all it ever left me was wanting more of you
Jun 2019 · 193
In my mind
Abby Jun 2019
I can't get you out of my mind
Everyday something reminds me of you
All it leaves me is me missing you
Feb 2019 · 160
Falling
Abby Feb 2019
Falling
It's so easy when the sweet words fall off of their lips like honey
You want a taste of their sweetness
You end up falling into the sticky sweetness of their sweet taste
They pull you in with words and use you for actions
That's what it's like to fall
Sweet words are like a drug
They make us feel like we're adored
And when they're done were just a bore
Feb 2019 · 125
Heartbreak
Abby Feb 2019
How many times does my heart have to break
How many heartbreaks will it take before I no longer have a heart at all
Time and time again the pain never seems to get easier
Every goodbye by every man is just as heartbreaking as the first
Feb 2019 · 137
You
Abby Feb 2019
You
No matter how long its been
No matter how bad you hurt me
I still think about you
Pray for you
Miss you
You haunt me every second of every day
The place we first met
Your voice
Your smell
The songs we used to sing
The roads we would drive
It all haunts me everyday
As I pass the roads we used to roam
As I listen to the songs in silence
As I cry knowing your gone but still somehow everyday you still seem to be here with me
Feb 2019 · 132
What is love
Abby Feb 2019
I don't know what love is
Ive searched for it everywhere
Through men, friendships, my father, and even myself and it still gives me only one answer
Pain
Everytime I pour out my love to receive that same outpouring, commited, passionate love that I give to others
They leave
They leave me
Sitting in the dark, the door closed, when everyones asleep crying into my pillow so no one will hear me scream from the pain of people have caused me
All because they didn't love me
Feb 2019 · 114
Pain
Abby Feb 2019
Pain
That's what you taught me
You taught me how to fall so easily
To chase
To run
And to give
But it was all for you
It always was, even from the start
You wore a mask and clouded my mind
You made me fall and give into the taste
But when I realized the corrupt person you were
I ended up getting burned from the lies that poured out of your mouth
The scorch of you burned holes in what was left of my heart
And when it stopped
I sat there paralyzed
Pain was all I felt

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