I built a garden
Out of my own hands.
Planted seeds,
Watched them grow.
And when they bloomed,
I hacked them down.
Because they were prettier
Than you.

Behold the nature,
She's talking with you in sways,
Smiling in colors.

Some came in chains
Unrepentant but tired.
Too tired but to stumble.
Thinking and hating were finished
Thinking and fighting were finished
Retreating and hoping were finished.
Cures thus a long campaign,
Making death easy.

I'm so scared
I know what may be coming
And it isn't pretty
I just want to crash already
And burn up into smoke and flames

If I can't have you
If I can't love you

well then

I'll hate you

let me slowly forget
let me slowly erase

all of my hopes and dreams
I thought maybe the stars would align
the universe would be on my side
the impossible stays silent

I can't love you
I can't have you

it's easier to hate you