I feel you crawling on my skin like a million germs,
quietly trying to **** me out of sight and sound.

Years long gone you say I'm out of your head,
I'm just not in your present our mental hookup's not dead.

I'm wired like a machine, working, and pacing, and blowing off steam.

You say I killed hope, but she's alive and well.
She's what keeps me afloat.

Though I stilI long for your presence, and the way you counted on me,
but look at you, you're like ** Nanny McFee;
You stay while I need you, and when I want you, you leave.

So I'll leave you with this.

Alert self protection,
fend of anythang that may hinder your personal development.

Satisfy your needs undisturbed,
devote yourself, and recharge.

Crisis proof, existential survival,
create your stable solid base for life to thrive.

Important sense of well being is joyful fulfillment of desire.
Take the earthy thoughts I left you and start a fire.

Vigorous effort.

Be inspired, allow yourself to give your all
and resolutely fend off injustice and make it fall.

Nobody looks each other in the eye;
Poverty thrives so the courts don't run dry.

I see an old man with his walker in the rain alone,
can't find a ride with his ****** trac phone.

Everyone's too 'cautious' to give help or receive it honey,
but there's no limit when you have a lot of money.

America.

I see a couple cry in the rain before they're torn apart,
I guess nobody told them a dollar has no brain or heart.

Arrogance tried to **** kindness, but it's not dead only dormant.
Only because those who lack it make others their doormat.

Media.

Bleak concrete.
I stand filled with numb emotion as I see legged fish, swarming a landmade ocean.
Drown, Drown, no one will hear a sound.

So smoke your cancer and eat your heart attacks,
and don't forget to tip and pay your tax.
Deep in the gut cemetery of weeps and wallows;

Do you think the whale counts every small fish as he swallows?
Perhaps not, but I like to believe he does.

Tears on your grave for you will never see her birthday cake.
You are the embodiment of the mistakes I've made, and will make.

I'm pretty messed up, but you've never seen a mirror.
When all's said and done I'll still be surviving over here.

Better off alone, I was better off alone.
So I'll let you drown. Go back to the ocean you escaped from.

I hooked you like a fish, but you were made of scales, filth, and disease.
So I let you back with pure ease.

I'll see a hungry day without you, I'll never feed into your manipulations.

I was the new toy you changed your mind on and put back on the shelf,
and that is why, I'm better off by myself.