My summer love,
so refreshing and warm,
i wasn't expecting you,
but you came knocking at my door,
you had me at hello,
you didn't even need to try,
one look in your eyes,
and i knew you were mine,
but like all seasons change,
the summer sun faded away,
the brightness in your eyes,
they were replaced with a cold wintry day,
the warmth of your hellos,
were now replaced with chilly goodbyes,
the heat of your body curled around mine,
slowly morphed into the imprint of an empty valley,
full of saddness, darkness, and broken lies

I miss you,
The scent of you,
The sight of you,
The feel of your skin against mine,
The stare of your eyes as they peer deep into my soul,
The way you smile cheekily at me,
Making my cheeks glow,
The sound of your voice,
The taste of your essence,
The twinkling sound of your laughter,
The jokes you convey with just a look,
I miss it all,
and at the same time,
somehow,
I miss none of it at all

Everywhere I turn,
My heart starts to burn,
People are laughing,
People are smiling,
Inside I'm hurting,
Inside I'm crying,
I want to die,
I don't want to be alive,
Yet for some reason I try,
I try to survive,
But the truth is I'm cold,
So cold hearted and old,
I want to bury myself in the ground,
I never again want to hear another sound,
I want to cry and weep,
I want to cut myself and sleep,
A sleep that never ends,
One that to heaven will send,
My sorrows and worries,
And make a light all my memories,
But for now I'm not yet gone,
I'm here, and I'm barely holding on

No matter where I go,
no matter where I look,
no matter how hard I try,
I can't get over you,
I thought we were done,
I thought I'd moved on,
but the truth be told,
you're my only number one.

I'm lost,
in my home,
I'm lost,
I don't belong,
I just want to be happy.

I was dumb to think you'd get rid of my pain forever,
the truth be told you were nothing but my morphine,
when I had you I felt pain free, happy, nothing hurt,
but when you left, when you were gone, right then,
I had never been in so much pain.

I dont think I'll ever learn,
that all I ever do is get played,
every time I Meet a new guy,
I think he isn't the same,
maybe now I've learnt my lesson,
but in my mind I probably haven't