I'm dating him..
But I love someone else..
Just in what way..
Confusion overwhelms me..
I just want to go to bed..
But he's on my mind...
confusion..

I feel lost on this earth,
people tease me,
people accuse me,
half of the time i don't here about these things,
I'm unwanted,
I'm disgusting,
I'm weird,
I'm insane,
Why can't I be normal?
Like the girls who everyone likes,
someone who people wouldn't make fun of,
I'm ashamed of myself,
and I wish to be gone.

I walk down the hall,
I think to the times,
when we were small,
how we always laughed,
and passed around a ball,
now I see you around,
mostly in town,
drinking and smoking,
being a clown.

Detroit, Detroit,
it means the world to me,
nobody understands,
how much it means to me,
I love Detroit,
and nobody will ever know why <3

When we first met,
I thought it'd be a crush,
but I look at us now,
and see this is real,
this is love,
this will last,
hopefully forever

I was dumb to think you'd get rid of my pain forever,
the truth be told you were nothing but my morphine,
when I had you I felt pain free, happy, nothing hurt,
but when you left, when you were gone, right then,
I had never been in so much pain.

My summer love,
so refreshing and warm,
i wasn't expecting you,
but you came knocking at my door,
you had me at hello,
you didn't even need to try,
one look in your eyes,
and i knew you were mine,
but like all seasons change,
the summer sun faded away,
the brightness in your eyes,
they were replaced with a cold wintry day,
the warmth of your hellos,
were now replaced with chilly goodbyes,
the heat of your body curled around mine,
slowly morphed into the imprint of an empty valley,
full of saddness, darkness, and broken lies

Honestly he is like my air,
honesetly he is amazing,
honestly what would i do without him,
honestly he knows who he is,
honestly I hope he likes me,
honestly... I might just love him..
and honestly..I know he doesn't feel the same...

Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
It’s too hard without you.
I’m just struggling to breath.

To be together, would mean the world,
To be together, means to never be apart,
You're so close yet far,
& it's hurts to much,
But we're are together,
at least in my heart.

Life's a challenge,
It can be smooth as a stone,
or rough as the waves crashing onto the shore..,
you think you're breaking down like an earthquake,
but you're making yourself stronger, building up like a tower,
so that one day, a little crash of waves won't make you fall down,
you'll shine bright, abover the rest like a huge, shining skyscraper.

I remember the first time I cut.
Back in the winter of 7th grade. Things were hard.
I decided to cut. It started with a needle. Dragging it across my skin..
Felt so good..After a few months I started to cut to the point of blood with a needle..The winter of 8th grade...Things went to hell..I found a cutting knife ...
I cut so deep..Blood went everywhere..So good..I carved the name of my true love into my wrist... Summer after 8th...I was tired of everyone finding out I cut..My "friend" reccomended I cut with a razor..So I did..SO MUCH BLOOD, and it didn't always scar because they were clean cuts..Winter of 9th grade...I get our of the shower..I stare at my naked body in the mirror...My wrists have a few scars and a name still engraved on my wrist...I look at my thighs..
Full of scars, fresh cuts, and so much more..I pull on my pants, and put on a shirt.. I open my coverup and put it on my wirst..I look at myself in the mirror.. To anyone passing by I'd look fine..I look at myself..And I smile..

I'm lost,
in my home,
I'm lost,
I don't belong,
I just want to be happy.

I never got to meet you,
you left this world before I could,
I don't know if you know of my existence,
you past on before I came around,
I hear you're really nice,
I wish you hadn't left so soon,
I'm sure I would of loved you,
I'm sure you would of been my favorite,
I wish you were still around,
so I could say that I once knew you.

I thought I loved you,
We've dated many times,
but then I saw you,
& everything went bad,
that night we broke up,
some girls oh they laughed,
& now I think about it,
& realize...
I still love Detroit.

I thought I loved, I thought you were the one,
But if you've got the nerve, to go on, and on,
about how she's the one, you're not worth the tears,
love's just a word that never last for eternity.
I'm over you, I'm done, I'm once again in love, not with you,
but for once, a smart one.

( Shortened version of the actual thing. )

He's on my mind all the time,
when someone mentions him my heart it flies,
to another world,
to a world where he is with me all the time,
where breakups, and jerks don't exist,
and people mean what they say,
and they don't judge you by race, religion,height, or weight,
a place where I can be me, with him.

There's a side to me that nobody knows,
I really hate it, and try  not to go,
When the pain gets to much all I do is cut,
and it's not that hard to cover it up,
All the time I smile, and nobody knows,
The pain I have to go through,
and depression never shows..

You always shout at me,
You always yell at me,
You always pick on me,
You always abuse me,
But then you can be loving,
& Then you can be kind,
& then you'll say you hate me,
and that I should die.

I miss you,
The scent of you,
The sight of you,
The feel of your skin against mine,
The stare of your eyes as they peer deep into my soul,
The way you smile cheekily at me,
Making my cheeks glow,
The sound of your voice,
The taste of your essence,
The twinkling sound of your laughter,
The jokes you convey with just a look,
I miss it all,
and at the same time,
somehow,
I miss none of it at all

I loved him for 4 years,
when we fell apart it broke my heart,
but a few months ago, I met someone new,
I fell in love with him, and of course he knew,
he said he likes me, and wants me too,
but we only see eachother once a week,
I can't stand to let the love from my heart leak,
because of who he is, and because of who I am,
and because of what we believe in, we will never be
together.

You're my light,
you're my life,
you're everything that is right<3

No matter where I go,
no matter where I look,
no matter how hard I try,
I can't get over you,
I thought we were done,
I thought I'd moved on,
but the truth be told,
you're my only number one.

I dont think I'll ever learn,
that all I ever do is get played,
every time I Meet a new guy,
I think he isn't the same,
maybe now I've learnt my lesson,
but in my mind I probably haven't

I never remember being very happy,
for as long as I remember you always hurt me,
you, dad, my brother,
hit me,
abused me,
made fun of me,
I just don't get it,
what did I do,
you used to make me smile,
now those never happen,
you hurt me,
you broke me,
one day , when you find all my scars,
I want you to know,
they're only there because of you.
Not me.
YOU.

When I look at you,
I think how lucky I am to have you,
When I look at you,
I think you're perfect,
When I look at you,
I see a piece of heaven,
looking at me too

I loved you since I met you,
I thought maybe you did too,
I wasn't really sure,
but I hoped for the best,
and yesterday for the first time,
you said,
I love you,
and so of course I replied,
I love you too

Sometimes I wish Religion didn't exist.
Because of religion, I canot be with who I want to be,
I cannot do, what I'd like to do,
I cannot eat what I'd like to eat,
I cannot be who I want to be.

Together you said,
forever you said,
I love you, you said,
I'll stay forever, you said,
but, it's only things you said.

Everywhere I turn,
My heart starts to burn,
People are laughing,
People are smiling,
Inside I'm hurting,
Inside I'm crying,
I want to die,
I don't want to be alive,
Yet for some reason I try,
I try to survive,
But the truth is I'm cold,
So cold hearted and old,
I want to bury myself in the ground,
I never again want to hear another sound,
I want to cry and weep,
I want to cut myself and sleep,
A sleep that never ends,
One that to heaven will send,
My sorrows and worries,
And make a light all my memories,
But for now I'm not yet gone,
I'm here, and I'm barely holding on