Amy Childers

Amy Childers Jul 2023

I am ephemeral yet eternal.

Drowning in my own insanity and emptiness,
Yet there is a sense of banality as my soul spirals in the waves.

Enraged and imprisoned amongst the tide
My body now imprisoned by fleeing time.
The crashing waves tearing flesh from bone, And the tide carrying my tortured soul.
My body forgotten along the shore,
Returning to the elements where I was once Born.

Blood to Earth, my debt has been repayed.
In the afterglow my bones now lay.
Forgotten, buried in the sand.

   Am I eternal or ephemeral?

I am just a man.

#sad #forgotten #death #drowning

Amy Childers Jul 2023

Zoom in.

All you had to do was zoom in...
You would have seen that my smiling mask
         was cracking..
My bright eyes
          were dimming..
My very soul
          was fading..
Maybe you could have saved me.
Maybe you could have listened.
           To think...
  All you had to do was zoom in...

#camera #fading #melancholy #lost

Amy Childers Feb 2021

Yea

So yea it's been a while,
I guess I forgot all of the things that used to make me smile.
maybe that is destructive on my part but everything I loved will eventually break my heart.
so yea I gave up
because I rather have never loved at all and
forget this pain.
the pain that will not leave my heart or brain.
so yea
...
I give up.

#done #giveup

Amy Childers Aug 2019

Don't worry about me.

I tried to work on my depression, but no one will listen.
I sit down and try to piece things together but nothing is changing. Sometimes I wonder if I am wasting my time and should go back to lying. "Yeah I'm fine. Why?"
Calm down Amy or you are going to start crying
If you show vulnerability then you will never be able to look them in the eye.
Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier to die.
Maybe then I will not be here trying to make you listen.
What about your stupid feelings, ha no one will miss them.
Oh! That is not a tear in my eye! Those are not my emotions that I hide.
No! I am not trying to hint at something.
I don't care if my dad thinks I am nothing.
I don't care if he hates me.
I don't care that everyone around me is changing.
And I don't care if you get up and leave me.
Because you are not the first ones, all of my family and friends are fading.

Amy Childers Aug 2019

Reverie

I never wanted a castle made of gold.
                             .     .     .
I just wanted to live on a lone cloud.
                             .     .     .
                           With you

Amy Childers Jul 2019

Night Visions

The putrid flesh from its skin gleamed so brightly in the darkness.
Advancing, with the smell of barbarity on its tongue,
The creature stared with pearl eyes.
It seemed to grin at a thought in its head, almost like it had heard a joke,
Which revealed glass-like teeth with jagged edges.
The monster stood in silence.
It did not move for what seemed like an eternity.
It did nothing.

CRACK!!

A horrid sound came from the creature.
It broke every single bone in its body and shaped into a
Crouching position.
The creature crawled under the bed and waited for me to look under.
I looked under the bed and saw its eyes looking straight into my soul.
It spoke finally and only repeated one word.

" homee..."

Amy Childers Jul 2019

Puzzle Piece

I guess I made this false allusion that everyone i love was a part of me.
I feel like a puzzle that is losing pieces everyday. The cruel reality is
that there was never a puzzle to begin with.

There was just one lonely puzzle piece...