I remember the night
I wished to rip my skin
From my bones, from my veins
Clawing at it to bleed

To drain you out
To scrub me clean
To dig out all the
you in me

I remember the screams
The murderous shrill sound
Coming from my own mouth
As if to shout you out

I remember the days
That followed and the weeks
Of sitting still in darkness
Waiting for you to leave

I remember the hole
You left behind to fill
I remember it all
I remember it still

I stared blankly on my ceiling,
Wondering of the things we used to do,
Moments of happiness,
Glimpse of our dreams,
Believing in forever,
Dreaming about us,
Dreaming about our love.

Everything seems fun,
Even staring at our sparkling eyes,
Seemed to be a wonderful experience.
We even talked how we feel,
When we held hands,
Very tightly sealed,
Like our love.

Then I remembered bitterness,
The pain that all of these are just,
What we used to do.
When we loved the way we used to,
When our love,
Is what its used to.