When you finally smile,
when you finally make it out...
when it finally lets you go.
It comes back ten times harder,
just to make you quit,
and I want to.
But I will not,
it's hard.
But I will
Not.

Have you heard the sea cry...
you have the destruction it can bring.
Silent yet deadly.
But have ever heard it cry.
Pry, pry, pry
I have done
but have you ever heard it cry?
It's soft but strong...
the cry of the sea has long been forgotten

Like water she comes and go's.

Like water, she moves in and out of cracks.

Like water she flows.

Like water she's manipulative.

Like water she's strong.

But she could eventually evaporate.

The need
The ach
The pleasure
The scars
The pain
The itch
The escape
The scars
The blade

None stop
Hold on
It's all aboard the dark passage

The sun blocks the darkness from entering
The fun blocks the pain of nowness
The cast grays blocks  the blues of the smiles

The dark skin blocks the center the blacks, blues
The warmth blocks the freezing cold bitterness
The ignorance blocks the peace of painless

The eyes block the center of reality
The canvas block the passion of weakness
The hands block the closeness of grace

The heart blocks the sins of giving
The wakeness blocks the guilty of staying
The chair blocks the truth of the past

The creatures block the cup of fullness

Scared of the past
Running from the future
10 steps forward
5 steps back
Never forward always back
Scared of the past
Running from the future

Games are played
But the there's no winner

Diamonds win and
Hearts are crushed

The lights shine
But there so dull

Queens are stolen and
Kings are crushed

All is in
But you get 22

You have a flush
But theirs is royal

Your tell is untold
But you take a shot

A beautiful canvas
painted in red

The yellows
gone
The blues
gone
The greens
gone

The canvas
nothing but an abyss

A slash of blackness
an illustrated creations

The red
gone

Four letters

That's all it took

L-O-V-E

Thank you so ******* much

L

For being my haven

O

Because where would I be now

V

Without you

E

Oh wait!

Love.

You trick me

You broke me

You think death broke me

No it was you

You betrayed time

You are the true destruction

Because death is an escape

And you are my ball and chain

You want to have purpose

But you weight on me

Was just to heavy

So *******

Do you know how it feels to wake up every morning wanting to **** yourself.

Your so frustrated with the situation that you take out you angry on someone.

The pain that swallows your chest.

I take a shower yet I never feel clean.

I get all pretty but I think I’m ugly

To constantly be surrounded by noise and never have time to think.

To just be so many emotions and throw it in a bottle and seal it up and hope it doesn't burst.

To apologize when your not ******* sorry.

To just want to have a day without work just so you can think of a way to tell your mom that your still depressed.

And it so clear that it easier to just fly.

And to now that the only think holding you down is not family but fear.

So if I do leave and you find this don't look for me.

Just let me go.

Just let me be.

I'll return soon, when I'm ready...

The eyes of the no-seeing
The pain of nonexistent cuts
The broken heart of sand
It clouds me

The loving kiss from my enemy
The hugs from the butterfly
The stripes from the smile
It haunts me

The door to up
The smell of outsideness
The creatures of pain
It feeds me...
It secretes me

The light was still
the air deprived
the creatures of the night
blinded

The ideals of yesterdays tomorrow
swiped

The raging fire
the spiritual winter
nothingness...
silence

The air moans
the air dries
Yet the creatures lie silent