Oh, the big whole life
That fills all mystery
And makes everything so small....
She stares out a window
At the center of her world,
A sorrow
Like a dark magnolia
Which changes when touched.
She had a wall around her
Until the day she let's it go,
A turbulent dream that keeps her
Awake, to guard herself from
Everybody else.
Oh, her she is a dove,
A tranquility she knows nothing
About,
He told her she was beautiful
Holding his breath when he said it.
And the fragile destiny
Can be seen in her absence,
Her voice is darkened
And was gentle like air,
But the night is now born
Under her eyes,
The light escapes her as she
Walks with eyes to the earth,
She can't feel a thing
Because the pain numbs her,
Familiar to her like family now,
The razor is a new friend.
She cuts the life I to her,
Along with the jelly beans she grew
Up loving,
The blood runs down her thigh
And the flavor
Melts into her mouth.
Why is this normal for her?
She asks herself with a half smile,
The landscape of her life
Is a dream trying to feel
Anything.
I know her innocence
Has more than this razor,
And all her heart is stuck
In a painful fragility,
Touching what she sees as real
The days pass,
The scars number every day.
What destiny will free her
From the closed heart?
What steps will she take to free
Herself,
That the cage might become a bird?
Who will rescue her from the wolves,
While she bleeds herself
Into oblivion,
Some day,
Oblivion may take her home.
I know you are hurting, I know your pain. I know what it feels like to feel nothing. Write the pain away.....