I loved you.
But we couldn't be together.
They said it was wrong.
I told you not to care.
But you let it get to you.
They said
"A girl should never be with another girl"
But they don't understand that I am not a girl.
I am stuck in this body of a girl.
But my mind is that of a boy.
They'll never understand.
I begged you
"Please stay. We can hide"
But you said no.
It was wrong.
We were wrong for each other.
That women should never be together.
I loved you.
You lied.
You said you loved me.
Then why did you leave me?
I'm not a girl.
Yet you let their words get to you.
Let them trick your heart
And you left me.
But I loved you.
I love you.
Don't go.
I loved you.

You mean the world to me
You are my other half
You know my secrets
And I know yours.
We've been together for years now
And it seems like yesterday that we had our first conversation.
You've always been there for me
And I am always there for you.
You are my soulmate
My better half.
And though we are not lovers
You still hold a special place in my heart.
Because you are a different kind of soulmate
You are my best friend.
My partner in crime.
I love you more than you know.
I appreciate everything you do.
Though we have never outwardly said our love for each other
We both know we do.
And that's good enough for me.
You are my best friend.
And I am yours.

Sleep.
It is all I can think about.
The moment my eyes close,
Peace takes over.
Anxiety I once felt slips off my shoulders.
I am free.
Free of judgment,
Free of ***** looks,
Free of name calling.
I am free.
Sleep.
My favorite part of the day.
When the world slips away,
Turns to black,
And for a few hours,
I am blissfully numb.
Sleep.
I need more of it.
It's addicting.
The feeling of being free.
I crave sleep as if it were a drug.
Maybe it is a drug.
How can something so comforting,
So free,
So peaceful,
Not be a drug?
Sleep.

4 years and 4 months
4 years and 4 months
4 years and 4 months
And you threw it all away
The things you've done
The things you've said
I can't forgive
I can't forget
4 years and 4 months
4 years and 4 months
4 years and 4 months
Of my time wasted
Of my heart being used
Of my mind being played
You taught me a lesson
One I won't soon forget
4 years and 4 months
I hate myself for knowing that
4 years and 4 months
And although it hurts
I'm so **** glad its over.
4 years and 4 months
4 years and 4 months
4 years and 4 months.

She is my everything.
She is the stars that surround my moon.
Or maybe she is the sun and I am the earth that orbits her.
She is my get away.
She is the ocean and I am the sand.
Her waves crash upon me and when she retreats, she takes pieces of me with her.
She is a wasteland.
She is full of broken and damaged pieces and parts.
Yet, she is my wasteland.
I find comfort in all her broken and sharp pieces.
She is an earthquake
And I am the land she cracks.
She shakes me and cracks me
She breaks down everything I have worked so hard to build up.
And when she leaves
There is nothing left of me.
I am broken down and cracked.
Yet when she returns she helps me build up again.
And then I am complete once again.
But she will no doubt shake me and crack me once again.
And everything we built up together will be broken.
She is my everything.
And although she leaves.
She always comes back.
She is my everything.

They say that love is between a man and a woman.
That the racing hearts and soft whispers are to be between that of a man and a woman.
Yet when I look at her, my heart races and my mind fogs.
They say it is wrong to love that of the same ***.
That the soft touches and moans of pleasure should be shared between a woman and a man.
But when her mouth meets mine and my hands find her hair, I can't help but think that they are the ones that are wrong, not this.
Because this,
Her mouth on mine,
Our bodies flush against each other,
The look in her eyes,
Is love.
The soft whispered words and racing hearts is now something that both she and I share.
And when her body slots perfectly with mine
And her eyes show that there is nowhere else she would rather be,
I know that this is love.
The way my breath hitches
And my heart races
And her soft gaze is all I can seem to focus on,
I know that this is love.
And if this is what love is,
If this is what it really feels like,
It will never be wrong.
This is love.