I just want to hold on to today
Grasp it in my hands
Savor each moment as it passes
At least while I can

I look around my house
And think I won't be here
Come a year and I'll be gone
It makes me shed a tear

I love these walls
The memories they hold
The laughs and moments they have witnessed
That lies beneath crown mold

I want to live in now
Before it slips away
Because not too far from now
I'll be remembering today

Along a never ending path
I was walking without hope,
there was no reason to hurry
so I trekked on a while.
Until I came to a fork
in the road, I could take
left or right, either or,
then I saw a spider
strolling along side me.
He looked at me and smiled
"where are you headed?
Which will you choose,
cause one wrong move and
your life you will lose."
By his voice I was taken,
a spider that could talk
oh my, so not right in this place.
"Well, which way would you go?"
I mocked with anger
feeling the heat of deceit.
"That I cannot answer,
because this path is yours,
I already lived a full life,"
He answered speaking
more than just wisdom.
"Then why are you on
the same path as me,
running away like I am?"
I asked enthralled in rage
that spider was
wiser than even I.
But I turned left and he stayed
back, lingering in the silence
my rage paralyzed his words.
Before I got too far along
I turned back with a smile
thanked him and walked on.
Only a few moments later
I arrived in the land of
candy cane trees and
bubble gum skies.
Thank you Mr. Spider,
I am happy yet again.

i am nothing more
than the atoms that make up my body
the sadness that has washed over me
is like a flood that never goes away
and most days
i feel like a toy
broken and malfunctioning
from being used at the wrong times
by the wrong people
i would rip
every aspect of my being apart
if it meant getting rid of this feeling
my body has been sentenced to
what do you do
when you look in the mirror
and hear your insides weep
at what is looking back at them?
what do you do
when you've drawn a black cloud
above your head
with permanent marker?
i pour my heart into a glass vase
and give it to you
while you stare at me
with shaking hands
how endlessly ******* stupid am i for that?
i never expected you to fix me
but i never expected you to
break me even worse either
my worth is close to nothing
and i feel about as useful
as a broken record
im just a crack in the concrete
and youre a perfectly paved
road

-m.v.

The devastated people are
the seemingly happiest of all
but what happens if the fall
will they have gone down far?

Who's to say the sad
are the ones with the broken
hearts and souls wide open?

If a person is hurt
how can they pretend to be
so freaking lively and happy
yet be treated like dirt?

Well every single day
she puts on a huge smile
but it only lasts a while,
but has she ever been okay?

She is ever so fair
the beautiful kind of pale
her heart is for sale
and she has long dark hair.

Every morning she'll wake
with bright red eyes,
cause every night she cries,
but she'll smile for her sake.

She hides all she can
so they won't be able to see
the her without any glee,
though she doesn't have a single fan.

Walking down the lane
not one ray of light
with herself she must fight
to try and forget the pain.

Her goal is to lose,
to lose herself in
the world hidden within
and live in the blues.

But of course that's not it,
never will that be the story
and the world won't say sorry;
maybe for life she's just not fit.

Is this going to end,
will she continue to bleed,
will she get all that she needs
or for death will she fend.

Will she ever meet
somebody to love for real
or is that something she won't feel,
what fate will she greet?

The air is crisp and cool,
ebony and silver are the sky
hearts and souls long to fly
the ground is painted in crimson drool.

Where is she now?
Who is she anyway?
Oh it's that Madison Rene'
I see why death's her vow.

I just want to smile for you to see
Every message you send makes me smile
And I wonder if you know that
I feel like I don't say it often enough
I've missed a lot of chances to tell you I love you
And you seem so sad all the time
You don't have to be sad all the time
At least,
Not alone
It seems to be hard for you to understand that you will always have me
You can't break me any worse than anyone else already has
Go ahead and kiss another girl
No matter what you do,
I'm not going anywhere
I've never had someone like you
And maybe you've never had anyone promise to stick around before
But that's me
That's what I'm going to do
I want you to be happy
And I want to see you *smile

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the fairest of them all?
Oh her name is Madison Rene'
but what else can you say?

Tell me now, is she alone
has she ever had a home?
Is she a broken little kid
or is she a winning guy's bid?

Does anyone at all care for her
anyone who would show for sure?
Has she ever seen true love
even from someone up above?

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the kindest of them all?
It's that girl Madison Rene'
is she the only one with emotions at bay?

Tell me does this girl scare
does she know what its like to care?
Is she truly a kid at heart
or has her innocence been ripped apart?

Why is she so badly hurt,
how did she become their dirt?
When did this happen here
cause all her life she's hid in fear.

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who's the most broken of them all?
Of course it's this Madison Rene'
but will she ever be really okay?