Xyns: Poems

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Xyns Mar 2017

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Oh, so fleeting were they
The years we spent together..

#love #heartbreak #life #friendship #****

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Xyns Nov 2014

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He told me that I
Was his little secret
I told him that he
Was worth the pain

He told me that I
Could hold his hand
I told him that he
Could bring me shame

And I know that it's wrong
And I know I should change

But the words that he said
They drove me insane

And I know that it's wrong
And I know I should change

But

He told me that I
Was his sweetest pain
I told him that he
Was my best mistake

He told me that I
Could be his favorite lie
I told him that he
Could make me cry..

#love

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Xyns Jan 2015

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I liked How you said "Meh"
Because I say that too..

I liked how you said "Yus"
Because I say that too..

I liked how you used words..real words
Because I use them too..

I liked how you liked Red Dawn
Because I like it too..

I liked how you liked Lord of the Rings
Because I like it too..

I liked how you were atheist
Because I'm atheist too..

I liked everything you said
Because I was thinking it too..

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Xyns Mar 2014

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It's the evil that made me
The sins that shape me
This world is crazy
But, ya know, so are we

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Xyns Dec 2014

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It's 5:30 in the morning..
I haven't slept all night..
And all I want in the world..
Is to call you..
And hear you telling me..
How much you love me..

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Xyns Jan 2015

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They tell me it's bad for me.
They tell me that they care..

But they don't know it's their fault
They don't realize they did this to me

They called me fat, and lazy
So now I take pills to lose weight with creatine

I get hyper on them to stay happy
I'm addicted to the things that hurt me

All the caffeine is the reason that I smile
And, without it, I'd be suicidal

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Xyns Jul 2017

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I just need an escape.

A way out of this place.

I'm in a bad mental space.

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Xyns Mar 2014

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Thank you for being my best friend
For letting me tell you anything
Even for the tenth time

Thank you for understanding me
With all my awkwardness
My anger and hatred

Thank you for encouraging me
Throughout every single thing
Even when you don't want to

That you for being you
Because, without you
I don't know what I'd do

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Xyns Oct 2014

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"I'm gonna use my head as a weapon.
Find my way to escape this insaneness...."

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Xyns Dec 2014

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I wanna hit my head
on this cinder block wall
until I can't remember
why I did it in the first place.

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Xyns Aug 2021

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An infinite well of effort
Something only dedicated to a select few

Refuse to exhaust myself
For anything lesser

No work to right a wrong
That doesn’t include myself

Never again will I cry
Over a loss of love

Relationships
Deserve no time and
No energy to mend

There’s no value found
In self pity
Or in the arms of men

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Xyns Mar 2015

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I want you to know
That I don't love you anymore.
In fact, I hate you.

You should probably **** yourself.
Yeah, that'd be great.

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Xyns Mar 2015

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I'm completely and utterly
Heartbroken
I love you
But it's all over now
You've spoken

No..
Pearl Jam..
Eminem..
Creed..
Default..
My Darkest Days..
Future..
Hopsin..
Aerosmith..
..Could ever fix
this brokenness..

I miss you

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Xyns Mar 2015

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You're gonna regret leaving me
You'll miss me
Just you wait and see

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Xyns Apr 2015

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I don't think I can give to you
The things you deserve
The things you need

I don't think I can ever be
Enough to make you happy
Enough to keep you pleased

I don't think I can say words
To express what I really mean
To describe what I'm thinking

I don't think I can do this.

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Xyns Oct 2015

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Why is it that I blame myself
When you don't text back?

Why is it that I blame myself
When its all out of my control?

Why is it it that I blame myself
When you're feeling down?

Why is it that I blame myself
When somebody else hurts you?

Why is it that I blame myself
When I'm obviously innocent?

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Xyns Jun 2014

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The paint slips
through her hands
melting down and
staining the sand
branding the land

while she attempts
to sculpt strands
of words that stretch
across the world
like cheap rubber bands

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Xyns Oct 2014

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You are nothing
That I'd fight for
Why?
Because I already fought.
I did all I can do
So now I give up on you.

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Xyns Sep 2017

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I'll invite you to occupy my mind
I'll do my best to never waste your time
As long as you promise not to waste mine

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Xyns Dec 2014

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I guess I'll never get to be confident.

I'll never be good enough.

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Xyns Jan 2015

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And she drowned herself in the music
So that she couldn't hear her thoughts

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Xyns Feb 2015

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"I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again"

Rihanna

#whatnow

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Xyns Dec 2014

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I find it really extremely irritating when I'm just trying to write and read poetry and I get messages from someone trying to scam me out of money. If anyone tells you that they need to tell you something important but they need you to email them, It's all lies. They're trying to get you to send money. Just ignore the message altogether. I've already gotten two of them.

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Xyns Jan 2015

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Maybe this is the caffeine talking
Or this is the overload on creatine

But I love you.
You mean the world to me.

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Xyns Aug 2014

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I don't know what to do anymore
I give up.

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Xyns Dec 2014

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I made a mistake.

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Xyns Jul 2017

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Who is she?
Who am I?
Sing me to death
Your love's my lullaby

Sunken cheeks
Blackened skies
She's out of breath
Her veins now hide

But who is she?
And who am I?
I suppose you noticed
I am she
And she is I.

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Xyns Aug 2014

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Feeling like a kid
Is the best happiness

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Xyns Jan 2015

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I miss when
The words were
Innocent.

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Xyns Apr 2015

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I don't miss you

I miss the part of me
That you took when you left

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Xyns Apr 2015

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I need someone
Just as broken and
****** up as me
So that we
Can fix each other
*Hopefully

#alone

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Xyns Mar 2014

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Your words are scarlet
Like the lips of a harlot

Your breath stings
Severing my wings

Your eyes are blazing
Leaving my soul dazing

Your pain and suffering
Has become my everything

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Xyns Dec 2014

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"Do what makes you happy."

If I knew what made me happy
I wouldn't be in this situation.

#struggling

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Xyns Oct 2014

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My best friend is in a different state
And that's something I just can't take
I'm feeling homesick, I miss that place
Not for family, not for the memories
But for her.
For the girl who's been the only consistency
That I've ever know.
The only person to whom I've shown myself
The real me that is known by no one else.
I'm homesick for her.

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Xyns Oct 2014

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I love you.

Sadly

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Xyns Mar 2014

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Let's get lost
In the scrolls of time
It's a pleasure
To call you mine

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Xyns Apr 2015

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"I smoke a blunt
To take the pain out.
And if I wasn't high
I'd probably try to
Blow my brains out."

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Xyns Dec 2014

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I need help.
I feel hollow.
........
Is this how freedom is supposed to feel?

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Xyns Mar 2015

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Have you ever been so heartbroken
That you literally feel the pain in your chest?
That your heart actually aches?
That you feel like throwing up all the time?
That being alive just seems wrong?
Welp.
That's where I am right now..

And the saddest part is
He doesn't really seem to care

#tryingtofixit

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Xyns Mar 2015

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If I could do it all over again
I'd choose *you

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Xyns Nov 2014

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Confusion.
Lots of it.

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Xyns Mar 2014

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I get the shakes
I tremble
I get angry
I cry
I toss and turn
I fidget
I fight the urge
I fail

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Xyns Jan 2015

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"Today's a painful reminder
Of why it can only get brighter.."

Beautiful Pain. Eminem. Sia.

#thunderstorm

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Xyns Jan 2015

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Dear...
I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know how to be happy.

Dear...
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry that you've fallen victim..

Dear..
You've fallen victim to my brokenness..

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Xyns Jun 2015

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You cross my mind way too much
Almost like what we had was true love
But I'm not fooling myself anymore
Love isn't real, it's fiction, folklore
I'm not kidding myself about it
I've put up with too much ****
I don't wanna argue, I don't wanna fight
But it seems that's all that happens in life
I wish I could run away from being alive
Just quit, go somewhere safe and hide

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Xyns Sep 2014

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Sometimes, I simply can't handle living.
But then he comes around.
And suddenly, it's all worth it.

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Xyns Mar 2014

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Come lay with me
Please, just stay with me
Lose yourself within me
I want to be your company

Dear, get lost with me
Fuel your lust with me
Lose all cares within me
I will never be your enemy

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Xyns Dec 2016

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As free as a plastic bag in the wind
Plans subject to change
Vibes that can't go away

No worries, no frets
Finding, then blowing pineapple express
Fear of commitment led only to regrets

Each day, singular
Relationships, collateral
Each day, singular

Nothing to weigh you down
Even if you wish I was around
As free as a plastic bag in the wind

And that's why I keep giving in

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Xyns Apr 2014

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I talked to my dad last night
For the first time in months
And we laughed

And now I am wondering
Just why won't he
Have anything to do with me?

#love #life #father

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Xyns Mar 2014

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Your smile is beautiful
Your skin is the smoothest
Your voice is calming
Your living makes me happy