So I call to heavens and watch the clouds dissappear so I call to hell and watch money reappear..
Stand right in a moment of deceit but were talking about time it's hard to be pure..
Love and the belove most dead some will **** you oh Math what's the reason?

Easiest equation just because you live together dosent mean your not distant just because your distant dosent mean that he isn't real..

I believe I'm ready

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
Behold the beauty of your face.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
And never leave this place again.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
And leave all my cares behind me.

I will be whole
I still believe
I would just lay
Lay at your feet.

Sometimes I don't know
Why do I leave.
Even my friends
My friends all has left me.

For I will behold
I still believe
I'm gunna just... gunna break
Break in your arms cause I know I need to be free.

You call me your own
So Lord I give you me.
You call me to come
I come broken but it's me.

This is Gold season
I got my own reasons
I got my new meaning
Pictures old feelings
Drinking my own room,
Sipping slowly but the taste is missing,
What ive been thinking after My love is sitting and some how Day dreamin should It move ?
What's missing..
What's missing in Me?
All these questions get recognition like a prisoner to my mentioning the unmentioned did I mention there just looking..
So my focus is focus and my eyes are broken and my love is sitting and mentions are mentioning I forgot to let these questions are now thinking ..
"Why did you leave"?
Then the answer was instant with a warm breath under the soft  clicking threw his intestines out of throat between the beat of your sleepiness....*inhaling ..exhaling *.
You just laying there breathing is letting these
questions stop thinking
Breaking the eyes of my mentionings and Everything apart of me listen to you breathing.

Smiles are glass
And the heart is sand
They push me until I  break..
Time has Stopped once again

Breath out breath in

In the Eye of the hurricane
I'm calm in it's thunder
I have gave myself a float
So there my body lays in the river
Purifying my deepest thoughts
Cleaning my being
Washing away the times I tried to stay
What I'm trying to say..
I'm Leaving

**Breath in breath out

I went to far off the deep end
But what’s deeper then a mans imagination
Tales, lies oh it’s all the same - thing
But when truth is despise you will believe
Any-thing
Anything like man loving you more then your own family
Anything like wearing your boyfriends hoodie Dosent give you approval that y’all will stay forever...

I said
I did
It broke
You saw
I knew
I peaked and looked.
My body wants
Your body touch
That's lethal cause I'm dying for love
Or dying in lust..

I hate nights like this.

Well quit kicking me under the table..

I don't have what you looking for!
Well what are you looking for?
What are you looking at? Didn't you want me gone ?
Didn't you want me just to be there
But when I'm there
Where do we go
We go to another
Oh my brother
You push me until I'm bothered
Without the R we are getting Further
I've seen this happen to me and Joshua
Please don't do this
I..
But if you wanna
I'm out of..
Reasons and breath cause
I've been chasing many in this life uhhh!!
Why do you smile at me?!
Why do I smile back and shake your hand?!
When did you comeover and layed with me like a lover?
When did you just sit at my house and kissed me because it was funny and until we cryed...brother?
They can think what they think brother!
Well quit kicking me under the table!
Take your plate cause I'm not really hungry..
I love company  more then I'm thirsty.
If you ever read this.
Yes I'm trippin..
No, I like your company more then I wanna go or do somthing.

I'm full

where should I begin... the time i blow the pleasure it gets but I can't wait
for the end.

Then again yes I can, that's pepsie he drinking mixed with alittle of friends.

Speaking of friends where have you been? Well I've been growing up and your
road has just begun.

Memories heard better stores then this I've torn chapters of life just cause i know how it ends..
Picking the pages up and putting them back in the book, I tape your face and i glued my thoughts
there so i will learn and live.

I'm a king untangling the things that would make me just a prince, when you see this me and time became so intimate it blows me and it carries my generation but eternity will always birth this.

Taking shots at the bar, tell my mind it's to far.
Waist ciroc on my shirt,  I feel the end of my heart!
Bang!

Time flys with no wings, I'm full but haven't ate.
Can't feel my left hand, I can't even stand right.
Bang!

I bleed words that don't make sense
I don't know what I just said
I breath my last breath
Please take a shot for me because I'm up next.

Bullets are not the answer
Guns are not harmless we created powers that controls us
Power trips are just governments as the empires fall only the people will feel the need to pick him up.
Democratic atheist speaks about God
When half is buying the "truth"
I'll get shot just for saying "He is lying to us"!
We the people more like a group that's trying to kills us too deep I'm reported speaking threw the nails of this coffin if your reading this I'm just laying here waiting for someone to dig what I'm saying...

Who am I?
Who are you?
There's smoke and I can't see you..
Who am I? ..and what does it want from me?
A call from the deep,
And it's inside me.
My words are sparks and my hands are hot
Soon ill be a walking blaze
This fire is like a soothing grace
Lava leaking from my being as I don't fight for I know it's better to be with what is consuming me.

Warriors cry only when death is sweet.

Dirt looks good only when trees and plants are planted.

Rain comes to fall...

Freedom from myself will be the sweetest rest I'll ever know.

But til then I will live

What about healing
Feeling
Stars crack the ceiling
Im algin to the peeling
Head deeper then realness.
Have you ever been healing
Dealing
Over crowed my reasons
Never meant for you to be missing
Have you ever thought about ...
Have you ever thought
Have you ever
Have you
Have you
Have you
Have you ....

Whatever I been threw
Whatever I been threw
Couldn't hold my smile
Couldn't hold me down..
When I stop just to eat threw
Just to eat time away from the night
Ohh..
They took my order
But you came with my order
My eyes weren't supose umm..
Wait
Did you smile at me?
Yeah you smiled at me..
I'm coming back just to tell you I got butterflies from that...

We have done a lot we have but what is a lot if you never had? Having something that the other don't do you think you have more? Should I  resale what I have if I do would I have less to get more ?

Can I paint the sky for you even though I'm not God?
Which one you will trust if it was just us?
Tell me what's better in color..
The coat or the sweater?
Question my pleasure but don't don't question my love
This world is full of heartless Endevors
If I was one of them can you save him?

Most of the times i keep a couple of dimes
Like the change in my pocket I got change in the door.
Sitting in my passenger he likes my Dior
I tried to keep me clean but I got stains in the dark.
places and resorts
Drinks and the sparks
Kinks to the parts
Keys to the door

I can open you up but I rather hear your heart.

Burning the memories of when we were friends just to keep warm at night.

Waking up just to find ashes on my pillow is better then staying up all night

Because for years I would try to keep all my relationships burning with the intent to see us do right .

But when I seen the fire came from me always burning myself to give them light.

I found it was better to burn a memory then my life

Your name on my teeth,
My head escapin from me.
Think about it..just think about it,
Just you in my sheets.

Now you're in my dreams
Without you I can't go to sleep
I feel your energy...while you laying down beside me,
Think about it...just think about it.
No other Girl can love me.

I'm kinda getting cloudy
Can you bring your candy rain?

You want it back then take it,
The hoodie that kept me warm and the scent that comfort me threw times you were vacant.

The earphones I took to get me Out of my head asking my self who can be your replacement..

Why don’t you take the kisses off my cheek where we first met ?
How bout the last memory when I walked the dog and I called his name and he finally ran. He finally ran to me!

Yeah WHY DONT YOU TAKE HIS RESPECT,

And take my heart to cause thats yours to...cause u took that and I haven’t got it back.

..Well at least I’m  Your dogs friend.

Can I ...
Take you to deep and ugly world the villian that lives inside of me?
Can I ..
Hold you tight cause I haven't..
haven't really got over the things
Can I..
Listen to your heart and just tear up
Breaking down really wasn't me.
Can I...
Can I..?
Can I..?

Played it safe until you played yourself,
Keep God out of it so you can save yourself..
How’s that going?
From rags to riches but listen your ears are cut off walk slow cause you know the distance.
Walls are talking cause they hold secrets
Skip the details cause in the mirror do you see me?
Do you see him?
You was on a clean path
But I know how hard it is to be
Bump your head was that because I wasn’t living right?
Smoked that night cause you were tired of being ok when you know you wasn’t so let me ask ..
How’s that going ?

Can I tell you something ?
Can I speak the truth?
I did lie to your face
I did cheat on you
I had my reasons but I’ve learned from my mistakes
So I hope face to face you will see A different man with a clean slate.
Can I tell you something?
Can I speak the truth?
I just wanted to be next to you.
You gave me the best feeling no person has
And even now you are the reason I still look at my past like ....”Thank you”.
Can You tell me something?
Can you speak the truth?
If there was a way to rewrite our sins and do things usual
Would you be by my side?
Would you love me till my funeral ?
Cause I’d hold you’re hand on ur sick bed to.
Can I ask you something ?
Can you tell the truth ?
I still got that ring I never gave to you..
If I bend one knee would you still marry me after all we have been threw

I’m okay in the uncertainty of his trust,
Cause knowing real love he wouldn’t do anything to sacrifice what we are made of.

Blood on my hands
The 3 nails from your son
I did it!
I killed him!
I killed the only one who can save me from this man I become!

It's me you should ****!
It's me you should beat!
It's me that they should of took the 3 nails and pierced them into me!

This world is not perfect
This man is not to
I strive for excellence tonight I will eat without a spoon.
My bed can't feel so I know it's just me that wants feeling.
This body is rigged like the Government and yet I look at Obama like I can't do with you do ...proceed
This world isn't perfect get that threw your head,
This man isn't to pray for him. Please pray for me

You know I love you
No matter what you do...
And I
Hope you understand me
But were gunna see it threw
Cause I love you

Dear diary,
I use to feel trap like a prisoner within these walls.
Now… I just see the real problem
It’s me!
I got trust issues And I’m way to possessive.
Maybe I just need sleep but the xo  won’t let him.
I smell smoke
There is something on fire
Or is it just me again slowly burning thoughts until the feelings expire.

…sometimes I wonder can we get much higher ?

When the rain becomes snow
And you’re heart turns  cold
I want to know...
Will we grow old?
Will we get to see another spring?

cause the roses they bloom
And there’s nothing to do
Could we just take it slow
And enjoy the summer’s moon.

I will watch it with you
You know there’s nothing to gain
But I still feel the same
When it’s not with you it’s a pain.

I never knew what I would do if anybody tried to take you away,
And that beautiful boy won’t wait for you because he’s busy with the lights and his ways.

And I don’t know why I breath,
It’s taking to long for me
Oh don’t bring up the process to me ...please!
i drove along way just to see your face.

i need somebody
Somebody!
Crazy enough to tell me
“I will love you till we...
Till we are buried”!

Our bodies
Our bodies buried close together
Cemetery weather
In the cemetery weather.

Harps will sing my life ...well
Whether if we died

I always knew that there was a end to all the laughs and smiles and run to my aid.

..and your faithful boy won't wait for you because he's busy praying for her today.

And I don't know why I came
I know that the rug will be snatched from under me,
Oh please take what you want just don't leave!!

Cause all of my old friends had wings.

I need somebody somebody hold me close forever tell me zeal please don't leave till we are buried.
... our bodies our bodies buried close together cemetery weather in the cemetery weather

To be intimate is like a joint
To be real with yourself is the smoke
I'm reliving the day where I drunk so much my lust spoke
And my hand shake
And my heart choked
No tears ran but I'm so low
So low to the point let's just not talk about what happen cause what happen you don't wanna know I just wanna leave but I don't wanna go cause I don't want to keep you like this where who i was is the same picture you think of when I left you like that I pray that you will give me another chance

Inner Battles fighting for the new me
I couldn't handle being the old me
Cause change is good when it's for better things so..
Was I wrong not too come and see you old friend?

Have you ever let the Tv watch you while you think of what should of happened?
I should of kissed you and listened
I should of texted more and went the distance
Flipping the Tv But reminiscin
Expensive shirt for no reason cause I’m sitting alone at this table with eyes but yu not being here there all watching me in vain ...for no reason....here....all alone
Watching the tv but paying no attention
The tv is on and there’s people here but without you it’s like the noise of chatter means nothing
Zilch..
Nada...
Nothing... I can’t hear nothing

Can we just change the channel

Blinds cover and sheets cover the cold winter sings soft like a new born hyme.

You Got Doctors you got pills but what's touching him?

New letters the new faces I see that life is writing to him.

In a story that's not mine, another character but what's scarier? If I our friendship dies at the end.

Brushing my fingers in Gold,
The smell of your hair reaches my nostrils...
Captured by your ocean
Your eyes are like ancient fossils.
Bound to discover what makes them roll back,
Just by my finger tips the blood rushes to a divine mass.
Extacsy!
Extacsy!
As I heard for the first time your consuming Laugh.
If this what Love is why do all these Men chase ***?

I can't get no rest
i fell asleep with a list
if you need to say something get it for yourself
this Fall will be the reason why i don't text
i can't get no rest
i need time for myself i guess
if you need to say something get it off your chest
seems like if i don't do what you say your ****
sense your in the bathroom i'm tired of your Sh**
Sorry my english and my French
Trip so hard whats next
now i have a smile who's next?
Lost so many i lost count
i lost my mind i lost it
somewhere in the middle of Rainbows and Him.
He who colored the sky I'm greatful for what you make even if i make my bed in hell in this ....

I thought I had something to say but I don't,
Carry on I'm listening to what you say I'm just not gunna talk that much no..no

i wanna be your lover
I wanna be your mother and your sister to
There ain't no other
That can do the things that I'll do to you.
Didnt wanna pressure you babe
But all I ever wanted to do!
I wanna be your lover.

I’m not a girl
I’m not a boy
We are only love..
Do you Believe me?
We are nothing but energy
And if mine is Kinetic
Then place me next to where your desires are born..
That private place where the world limits your lovers
Who told you I had to be a girl?
Who lied to you that I had to be a boy
For we are only energy
Only love
Do you believe me

See I'm caught up in trance
Escaping is so thin.

The world will let you in,
But don't mean you fit in
Just fill in what I'm missin
Then we can just be friends..

What's friends if we're friends when we're caught in this love trance well I guess it fits...

Threw the text I’m sinking in my ****,
Ain’t got no exit only a **** switch.

My monsters look at me and say “I’m getting scared”.
“You don’t see the demons that be in his head”.

I don’t see nothing but you’re perfect smile,
I just need you before they put me down.

Put it to the light yeah you held me down.
Put it to the light yeah I messed around.

Leaving my haven and meet me in the thunder,
Donald days left us with a cold stunner.

Donald days stripped you of other colors
Donald mane ******* with you good covers
I don’t trust ****** that be undercover.

Fast forward  the love became just like a brother,
my world is was on fire threw the ashes I don’t see my brothers

Threw the ashes all I see is you.
In you’re car uniform threw loopy loop
I did U-Turn on 45 and it point me back to you.

Turn the lights down,
Sorry he's gone.

Tell me  what is right,
When your the one that's wrong.

Listen I've tryed,
But my shoulder is cold.

Be honest I've cryed,
To what I have become.

If we talk about tonight,
Tomorrow will come.

So I stand I'll fight,
Forgive me my love.

Turns the lights off,
You can stay if you want

Turn the lights off,
Sorry I'm gone.

You wear your feelings so Good on your shoulders there's no room for your heart but apart from the walk of your life you don't know where you going without him tonight known to be a wonderous soul you sit by me for the answers tonight just tell me your more then what you want to be like ease my greed and I'll show you where it's not enough room So I'll show u my heart tonight

I’ll try it if it feels right
But what it feels like
I’ve been walking for some days
And I don’t see this world the same
When the  sun gets brighter, my hearts on Fire
My eyes and stars awake.

Threw the thrills
I still ...
Think of you miles and miles away.

Calm down it's not that serious
Calm down it's not that serious.
Peace I can't I'm delirious,
Peace there making them clueless

I work myself up,
Then I'm in to deep.
I set myself up,
Then I fall so hard.
Oh God I'm so.....

..clumsy..

Existence is irrelevent
Living is like the opposite
Faith is better then religion
And relationship is greater then coexistence.

Here comes winter again
Coding the streets in panic the leaf change colors to see that change is something happens to all
So in all this I am subject to fall,
The object to crawl
And the substance to grow into all things I hold on to and let go

Getting off my high horse, I can tell and say yes I've been DECIEVED but if you look closer you can find Adam and EVE in that whole word.

Please I urge to see something greater then what a iPhone can give you or technology.

Itching ears only hear what they wanna hear but here how can you touch words? By saying them over and over until it becomes yours..

This might be the death of me, but even Ebola was made in a factory.

Words been cheap that's why the ones that get paid to say what they never wrote waiting to see if you know your DECIEVED.

Example A is the media example B is ....well those who believe.